Good morning .I have been following the posts for some weeks now but this is my first submission . I suffer from anxiety that is caused by life's circumstances . I have very elderly parents and am an only child and l lost my daughter 8 years ago and my only son is going through a few issues . I find these totally consume my thoughts all day . I have just woken up and feel wretched and it continues all day. My husband is sympathetic but doesn't know what to do except suggest that I cut out alcohol ,take more supplements and centre my faith .I am a practising Christian but even God seems distant and indifferent .I know that there is nothing I can do to change my circumstances but I can't go on feeling this wretched .This constant worry is like a huge weight on my shoulders that is affecting everything I do , I used to play golf and go to the gym now all I can do is try to walk everyday which is good except my mind is still filled with negative thoughts .
I take 0.5 Ativan at bed time and spray calicim on the base of my neck and fortunately I do sleep for about 6 hours then wake up feeling wretched . Could this be the medication . I have diazepem for emergencies but hardly use it because I don't want to get hooked .
I used feel as if this is how it is going to be forever and I will never feel happy again .