I'm afraid I'm never going to graduate from college. It happens at the same time every year during the fall that I start missing classes because I just don't want to get up. And it's been like this for the past 7 years. I know it's seasonal depression at work here and I've done so much to combat it: medication, light boxes, talk therapy, exercise, mindfulness, but it won't let up. I feel like I'm up against biology and I'm fighting a losing battle. No matter how prepared I am or how well I''m doing, it just happens automatically
I'm 24 years old and people within my own age group are all moving on with their lives and I'm still stuck here in school at a community college, a place I don't even want to be, fighting the same battles over and over. I'm embarrassed and ashamed whenever people ask me, "what are you up to?", and I have to begrudgingly say, "still in school."
I had originally wanted to get into physical therapy because it's something personal to me, but at this rate I don't believe it will happen. Now I ask myself is school the right path for me to take right now. Can I make something of myself without a degree from college? I can't think of anything. I don't have any skills. I have zero friends. No vision. I'm stuck at a dead end job making next to nothing. I've been in school my entire life, and I have nothing to show for it.