Where have I been, you may be wondering (lol) well I've been no where tbh. I haven't been on here, or my laptop at all that much, because my life has been engulfed by my Xbox 360. I'm so sorry guys, but nothing regarding my situation has changed, everything is still as rubbish as it was a couple of months ago, but I'm so numb to it all right now I couldn't really give less of a damn, so I'm okay in that sense haha. I'm still battling my eating disorder too, I've lost a lot more weight and food is pretty much non-existent in my life now, and my codeine addiction is still lingering.
I didn't return to College early this month because I could not handle the pressure, considering I'm going through so much. My sister isn't going to school either, we are taking time out to concentrate on us, and only us. I'm not even thinking about getting a job, I do not want one, I just want to sit in my bedroom all day and play on my Xbox, in which the only friends I have are alive on there. I have no social life, apart from talking to people online, and that's what I'm comfortable with atm to be honest.
On the upside, I have my first appointment with the adult mental health service on the 10th October, not sure how I feel about this, they may tip me over the edge as I've learnt to somewhat cope alone, not sure if I would let others in now.
I have no plans, no goals, no motivation, no feel, no enjoyment and no desire to change how it is. Going along with it seems to be better than fighting it at the minute, I tried that and failed lol!
I hope all my friends are still here? Please comment and let me know how you are, and any newbies feel free to introduce yourself!
I attached a photo of my woggy to cheer you all up.