Friends and lack of support...

[Sweetlolly11]

Today I literally talked to this random guy all day long about my problems simply because I have no one to talk to. The sad part being - it's not like I don't have friends! I have many friends! But literally no one will ever listen to me, and if they do, they don't take me seriously!

I just tried to talk to my best friend - it's 3:20 am, and I am not sleeping. I have no idea what my future holds - if I'm going to quit college, or try and beat the system to get myself into less classes, or I'm gonna have to put my head down and do whatever the school tells me to do. I don't know where I'll be a few days from now, let alone weeks, months or years. And there is NO ONE there to support me. Well, my best friend just ignored this and started talking, for a millionth time, about his dispute with this other friend. Basically they argue a lot, but nothing ever changes, so I just have to listen to both of them nag all the time. But that's more important than my existential crisis, right? Let me say again - this is my best friend.

Other friends: either can't even reach them, or they also ignore me and move on to another topic, or don't take me seriously, or think I'm weak/pathetic/exaggerating and try to "cheer me up" and tell me to "suck it up". I won't even get started on my family - sometimes they help, but they think I just get "a little queasy around people". I have: agoraphobia, GAD, social anxiety, panic attacks and depression.

I am currently looking for a therapist and I hope to be in therapy very soon - but I am so sad. I am going through this surrounded with people, and all by myself. I don't think you can even feel lonelier than that.

[Hidden]

Hi sweetlolly11

So sorry your struggling along like this right now, hopefully you'll have read some of the many posts here from fellow sufferers? I'm saying hopefully because if you have read them you'll soon realize that although your illnesses make you feel alone and isolated, you are infact not alone at all, we are here, many having the same struggle as you, we understand and can completely sympathize with your anguish and fears, try and take alittle comfort knowing that your not alone, have you spoken to your gp? sometimes we need to accept support via medication etc, sounds like your also under extra pressure here with studying,decisions etc?, what support does your study provider's offer for their students?

[Sweetlolly11 in reply to Hidden]

Please read what I wrote in my response to Cat33. See what my college is like. They do not care about their students one bit. :/

[Angep Star]

You can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely!! You can be in a relationship and still feel lonely. It's one of those things where people do want to help but they can only listen and advise so many times and when they realise that either stops working or falls on deaf ears then. Often they don't want to hear it anymore. Friends are human too and can only shoulder so much. That's why I think coming on here is good because there are so many different people pass through that someone will always have time to listen and try and help. Hopefully when you start your therapy it will help you move forward to a better place x

[Sweetlolly11 in reply to Angep]

It hurts because I can always shoulder everything they hand me. Even now as I am crumbling apart I am listening to my friend talk for a millionth time about his dispute with this other friend, and I am listening and helping, though my problems are ten times worse. Why? I don't know why, that's what friends are supposed to do? Yet no one ever does for me

[Hidden]

you ll always have friends here who will support you ,i have many friends but when it comes to health issues they all switch off-even family which is why i have little to do with my family.have you seen your gp-they will refer you for therapy.i did even though i didnt need it just to get them off my back.had two sessions and the therapist agreed my symptoms were fibromyalgia and i was getting ample treatment for it,

[Cat33]

You aren't alone there are loads of people who understand on here No one ever wants to talk about my anxiety I have tried but it's just never discussed I have a heart problem and arthritis and I get loads and loads of kindness for that but nothing for anxiety

I hope you will find a therapist and maybe a support group They should be understanding at college as you have an illness just like any other and they have a duty of care

Good luck remember we are all only a message away xx

[Sweetlolly11 in reply to Cat33]

When I failed a subject, I tried explaining it to them that my father had a STROKE that landed him in the hospital for two weeks straight and then he left still sick to work abroad and I couldn't study because of all that - THEY DID NOT CARE. They failed me anyway and btw failing that subject meant failing the whole year as it was obligatory to get into next year. I was only missing 3 points on an exam to pass. They did not let me. That's what my college is like.

[Cat33]

That's so terrible I'm really sorry xx