I'm so set im gonna die.

[Elecktra92]

I'm losing it hard. I've always been able to control my anxiety till October of last year. I got health insurance in August of last year. I went for my first papsmear. I got told I have highly abnormal cells and had to go get tissue removed from cervic and tested for cervical cancer. I of course was so scared and freaking out. Luckily nothing just highly abnormal but I have to go every 6 months to moderate it. Then I had gallbladder problems and had to get surgery I was so scared of getting put to sleep I thought I wasn't gonna wake up, I finally went through it . Now I went for a breast examine and the found a huge mass they think it's build up tissue, but I had to get a biopsy and get tissue get removed and sent to be tested for breast cancer. I get the results on Monday hopefully. And i also had a eye appt where the said I have larger optical nerve in one eye. They made me do testing and said I can be born this way, or if not we have to moderate because it's assoticated with galcoma. They said they don't think it is because I don't have eye headaches or pains. I told them I do though, and they said it might be cause my anxiety. So to moderate my headaches and if I keep getting them I have to go back in and get my brain scanned. This is ALL to much for me, less then a year and I've had 2 cancer scares, and now blindness? I've had so many panic attacks and constant worries . I'm scared they might find a brain tumor or something. And I don't know about my breast biopsy examine. I'm so scared I don't want to die or lose my vision. I don't have history of medical issues besides high blood pressure in family, but I'm having all these issues. I'm so uneasy all the time and I don't want to burden my husband. I don't know what to do ,

[Alan_98]

Hang in thete ! I'm sorry about all that you've been going through and I hope and pray that it's nothing ! Hang in there okay, I'm sure you will be okay and nothing bad will happen, just remember we're all here for you and support you, just wait on the tests okay (:

[Elecktra92 in reply to Alan_98]

thank you so much for the reply. It made me feel so much better.

[Agora1]

Dear Elecktra92, I won't deny that it is a lot of health issues that you are going through right now. I think anyone would be concerned but being anxious is making you so overwhelmed with worry and fear of the what ifs. I know you say you don't want to burden your husband but at a time like this you need someone who can be there for you. How fortunate you are to not be alone in dealing with health scares. There are 2 ways to approach your issues. Make a list of what needs to be addressed and cross it off when it is taken care of. The Gallbladder surgery should be at the top and crossed off. By doing this, it will help you feel like you have some control with the situation. The only other option is to ignore these health concerns and worry about them getting worse each and every day. I think you will choose the 1st option. It's not going to be easy but it's going to be the right thing to do. After all, what do we have if we don't have our health. Continue coming to the forum for added support and understanding. You know everyone cares about each other. I wish you well with your upcoming procedures and results of your tests. One step at a time is important to control your anxiety from escalating. Take care my dear. xx

[Elecktra92]

Thank you I tried the list and it honestly helped me so much. Thank you for being there for me during this hard time.

[Susiebelle]

Hi - only just read your post and do feel for you.

I hope that now your anxiety attacks are subsiding.

A good friend of mine went through some terrible anxiety attacks in the spring - though different triggers.

He has tried a number of ' treatments'.

He has found mi fullness and acupuncture particularly helpful - it may well be worthwhile seeking out these two methods.

I hope that you have turned a corner and are on the road to recovery.