Hey guys, so I'll try to get right to the issue at hand:
This summer, my boyfriend has an internship that is seven hours away. He's been gone since mid-June, and due to finances/work/etc., we have not been able to see each other. Well, one of his friends will be visiting him this weekend (Friday-Sunday/Monday), and my boyfriend thought it would be a great idea if I could get a ride with his friend up to visit him - saves money, etc.
Now, half of me is all for this. I have done absolutely nothing social this summer, as my anxiety and depression typically keeps me pretty secluded. The other half of me is scared out of my mind for so many reasons: Two seven hour drives with someone I don't know Hanging out with my boyfriend + random people I don't know - I tend to clam up and probably won't talk much until night when me and my boyfriend are alone in his room (friend will be staying in living room on couch). I have a minor soy intolerance (I get really bad headaches the next day/feel fatigued and bad), and I know that when I'm out with people I don't know (such as boyfriend and his friends), I won't want to bring it up because I don't want to drawa ny attention to myself. Also, I would want to come home Sunday morning, but his friend is planning Sunday evening/Monday morning, and it terrifies me that I have no control over my travel plans. I am at the will of this person.
There are other reasons, of course, that make me anxious, but I just don't know what to do. He is understanding and says it is fine I don't think I can do it, but I don't know if I should bite the bullet and go for it? Is it better to take baby steps and work myself up to things like this, or just jump all in? I'm just such a basket case. Any advice would be greatly appreciate - thanks!
(I made that pretty brief, so if any further details would help with anything, let me know!)