Fed up of constant anxiety.

[_Reba_]

I don't think there is ever a time I do not feel somewhat anxious. As I am typing this, I am shaking and going through the emotions of an attack. I've been worrying about a lot lately and think I have every illness under the sun. I feel into the trap of looking up my symptoms and this has made everything worse.

I have to admit I'm getting really down, to the point I feel depressed and even my family and friends are noticing. A family friend called me a 'washboard' because of how flat my tummy actually is. I got back on track with eating and now it's getting worse again.

Even falling back into my old ways, where I would scratch my skin when feeling anxious or having an attack. I never showed anyone, including my mother. She saw it once and helped me treated it but she didn't say anything about it. This started last year and it got to the point I was suicidal and was honestly thinking of ways to end my life.

I should add that I struggle a lot with my hormones. The same happened with my mother and sister when they were teenagers. This makes my anxiety worse and sometimes starts it.

I need to vent but have no one to talk to. I don't want it to get worse.

[1994smilelove]

Im the same as you.im constantly anxious all the time.which causes me depression too.it seems like im either sad or anxious at all times,i dont ever get a break from these bad feelings.i believe my horemones are most of the cause as well bc its never been this bad untill pregnancy and post partum.

[_Reba_ in reply to 1994smilelove]

It's truly horrible and I'm still suffering with the affects of anxiety.

Since I'm a teenager, my hormones are quite crazy. About 2 weeks before my period, I can tell that I'll soon start because of it.

[1994smilelove in reply to _Reba_]

Yea i know.its a horrible feeling.the symptoms of anxiety are scarey.and ive heard alot about how people has anxiety really bad before and during their period.wish there was a cure for this terrible disease!

[Whinlatter]

Hi I have suffered with anxiety since I was 17 and I am now 37, days are hard, some days worse than others. I feel like I put on an act all the time in front of people, trying to act normal, which exhausts me. I know exactly where you're coming from and just wish I had a magic wand to end this misery. My mother had suffered with anxiety but I seem to be much worse and I am sensitive to everything. Xx

[_Reba_ in reply to Whinlatter]

Sorry to hear that you've suffered for so long. Some days are difficult and I will admit I have good days, but it is hard to constantly put on a fake smile.

Since my mother has anxiety I cannot help but worry about her, because of her heart problem. She has had it most of her life and I was only 14 when I was told I had anxiety.

[Whinlatter]

I really hope that someone comes up with a genuine cure for anxiety, people do not realise how hard it is and all we want is to live in peace and live a normal life. Sending hugs to you and hope things get easier for you.

[_Reba_ in reply to Whinlatter]

Thank you You too.