So, I have been going through anxiety and panic. I'd say it's generalized because it's often the dumbest thoughts that make me feel anxious. Sometimes, like even today, I'm feeling anxious for no reason. It's like a nervous energy.. a nervous buzzing throughout my body.
I've attributed it to somewhat of a post partum thing - given that I was on a hormone patch for 5 weeks but removed it because I started having some anxiety attacks. After that...well I've been pretty consistently panick and anxious ridden. It has improved over the last week - not nearly as bad as it was when I first started them. It got to the point where I could deal during the day, but at night I'd get anxious and would resort to taking the .25mg Xanax my doctor prescribed to settle me down so I can sleep. Yesterday , for the first time, I felt calm just about all day. Now, I was exhausted because the night before I tried to sleep without taking a Xanax but gave in at like 1:30 in the morning, fell asleep at around 2 and woke up around 7:30am - so I had little sleep. But when I woke up I felt okay. My appetite was even better.
We went to a pig roast yesterday and I spent a lot of time just "sitting" around which, on a bad day would have made me anxious - idle mind and all. Yesterday, felt great with an occassionally mild "pang" but easily quelched. It was like I was too tired to be anxious. Last night, watched TV, turned off the TV and fell asleep with no problems . No anxiety whatsoever. I thought to myself: okay, my hormones must be returning to normal (keep in mind I haven't had my period yet , so hormonally I'm not in my "normal" mode).
Woke up 6 am this morning with a SHOT of .. I don't know adrenaline, nervous energy. I have been that way since. And I feel like I'm well rested, but tired at teh same time. I have the nervous pang in my stomach again.... an underlying nervous energy. Yet again.. have an underling sense of exhaustion although not as tired as I was yesterday.
So.. what the hell gives. Why was I good yesterday all day - starting to feel like my normal self and today I have this overwhelming sense of nervous anxiety for no reason? I wonder if , because I woke up with that "surge" that set off my day.. and had I awoken normally I would have been fine. Or are my hormones still out of whack where I'm just not quite at my "normal" yet?
I don't want to rely on Xanax to make me feel better. If at all possible, I would like to just use them at night to quiete the anxiousness to sleep.
Does anyone else experience this.. a good.. no great day, sleep well .. then next day wake up with a jolt and have the anxiety set off?