New thought on Meds..

[shadow45]

Having a bad day yesterday Went to my GP and basically just let it all out... Why do I keep the worst to myself... I was wondering if my Paxil was causing a heightened anxiety.... But my Doc (who knows my family situation and had been trying to help my Dad with these issues over the years) didn't think the pills were the problem.. It takes time for all the really serious anxiety to bubble to the surface... and with all the stress I have been trying to control it was just getting to the point where I couldn't keep the lid on it anymore.. So anyway he gave me Xanax. Now I know these Meds are not for everyone... So I will stop short of recommending them... But they have made an amazing difference to me.... I took the first one at noon yesterday (maximum three pills a day) and it shut down all the chatter in my mind after about an hour..I made it through the rest of day without any problems with anxiety... So this morning I wake up at 6am with the usual nagging worries. I took another Xanax and went back to sleep. I woke about an hour later with no anxiety... The mornings are always the worst.. My last few posts can attest to that... Now I feel a little wobbly in the legs and it looks like I'll be taking things (slow) as the whole effect is one of being relaxed..But these Meds are working on the anxiety... I feel a little tired but not to the point where I can't do physical stuff.... Just a sense of calm... And certainly preferred to the anxious hyper state I have been in the past few days.. I hope this will give some of you another thing to consider in your daily struggles..Much love to you all....Steve.

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Hi Steve.

I am glad to hear you are finally feeling a bit better, if the medication is helping that is a good thing you need to try and understand your anxiety I know it is always there but with help I am sure you will achieve your goals.

All the best Kenny

[shadow45 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Kenny... Isn't it odd how our stubbornness can mess with us even when we are in the height s of anxiety and depression ...We hang on to the old ways of thinking through the fog that can envelop us. Hope your days are manageable... steve

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HI Steve x Oh Im so glad you where finally able to get across how you have been feeling. Its so good to think you have told someone who can help you x Also glad to hear it was not the first meds that where the cause. I also think for you its so helpful that the doctor knows your family history to x I have heard mention of your new meds, but to recommend them here would be useless as we don't have them :/ x I can imagine it is so nice to have that awful chatter in the mind shut down for a while, although strange as we get used to it x Take it easy it will be a big adjustment x But Im really pleased you are having some break from it all xx Take care Donnax

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Hi Donna. The generic name is alprazolam. But you may be right about not being able to get them in the UK . Well I do have some more good news I have been offered a job here in town One of the Resorts here starts the season on May 1st...And I have been asked to work in the Catering part of the business.. Weddings corporate gigs etc... It a low stress job which is what I was praying for. And I have three weeks in which to get my poop together... I can move.. get the new place all set up and have time to take a rest before the season starts.. Just a blessing.. Well more than that a bloody miracle really.... So maybe my anxiety levels will now drop down a notch or two.. The house will be out of my mind... the move will be done... and I can look forward to getting a paycheck as well.. The season last from May until September. Which is long enough to apply for what we call EU employment insurance for the off season...I must say this up and down round and fround life is a bit unnerving But as you heve said before one day at a time. Hope you are ok today Donna.. much love your way steve

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Oh wow thats brilliant news. It seems finally some luck is coming your way. And what's better its a job you are good at x Thats even better x It can be so rewarding to cater for wedding s and such as the people are so grateful you made their big day go so well, so can boost confidence no end. And as you say it gives you times to get moved and settled in x I really think once you are working and have less time to think it will help to get the anxiety levels down x Just remember that if you start to feel the stress you must take time off and rest x Life has a funny way of throwing you curve balls when you cannot catch them x And then every now and then the golden ball comes and you just cannot afford to drop it xx So pleased for you xx Donna xx

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Its the ups and downs that are so debilitating. Its like the Jewish belief that if everything is going too well there is bound to be a downside eventually. ONe or two more things to take care of before my move next week Have to go out and do some shopping now.. have a great day Donna Keep in touch (I know you will) and thank you again...much love steve

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hi steve, so glad your feeling a little better,you have certainly been through the mill lately, your posts have been very distressing to read at times, have never heard Xanax but if they are helping you the awful time you have been having all the better,i do hope these meds continue to help you in your constant battles with anxiety, so happy for you steve, jasper xx

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Thanks jasper. Yes they have been hard to post.. and to read I am sure.. In my post to Donver I noted the generic name.. and if one were to ask their GP I am sure there is an equivalent drug in the UK... I cherish your posts and do feel your support. I see this new drug as a way to keep from having such down days... Not a cure but at least... I will be able to function more (normally) in the days to come...x steve

[Yummimummi]

Hey Steve

I'm so glad things are looking up for you

It's good you found the right meds for your anxiety.

Sending you good wishes and hugs x

[shadow45 in reply to Yummimummi]

Oh Yummi... what a bleeding rollercoaster ride A bit of irony here as my meds are keeping me from getting to exited. But yes things are looking so much better than just this morning. A story of a man who`s life was so bad he decided to take a jump of the Golden Gate bridge In San Fransico. He survived.. when he was asked "what the hell were you thinking" his answer was "After I jumped half way down my life didn't seems so bad after all". This is the case in so many of our daily lives we just don't think its going to get better ...and I guess to be truth full in some cases it may not.. But to think that one day someone ends it.. and the next day there numbers come up on the lottery...LIfe is full of little gifts but we have to be here to enjoy them.. bless your heart much love steve

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Hi Steve,

What an uplifting post. I am so glad things are turning out for the better.

Your house has soon sold again hasn't it? Here in Manchester houses aren't budging at all.

May I wish you health, happiness and love. Your new job sounds idealistic, it will ease you into the job market, keep you occupied and introduce to new friends.

Good luck, you so deserve it.

Eunice xx