So a couple years ago I had so much anxiety and panic attacks all day long. I got on Paxil and it was a miracle for me I was a lot better for a couple years, I got off Paxil in October cause I ran out of my meds and didn't have insurance. So here I am at 3 am sitting on my bed crying for so many different reasons.
I went to the ER AROUND 9 got back home at 10. They gave me Ativan and I felt fine, still a little shaken up but better. My daughter is two years old and she's been sick all day. I didn't think much of it till someone told me this bug bite she has looks like a staph infection. So I'm kinda freaking about that. Back it up to a couple days ago I was terrified of there being a bug in my ear and in my head..I kinda got over it but tonight, there was a pincher bug crawling on me, right by my ear! I thought I killed it but when I got up to look it was gone. I was going nuts looking for it my daughter was watching me and it woke up my husband and he just looked concerned about me, he found it and killed it. I just sat and cried I feel so embarrassed and overwhelmed with the amount of anxiety I'm feeling about like 3 different thing. I feel overwhelmed and I feel like I'm not being a good mother to my daughter who I just love. And I feel like I'm stressing my husband or he's looking at me like I'm crazy. I'm in the intake process for mental health services they said it would be about another month, I really don't know what I'm supposed to do I feel crazy, irrational, paranoid, scared..I just want this to end all I do is cry all day. Sorry for the rant I really have no one to talk to. Everyone just says "maybe don't think about it "