Anxiety Panic Depression!! Alone

[MonicaFlash12]

So I have a ultrasound/ mammogram coming up !! Went to er for a ruptured ovarian cysts 1 week ago gynecologist is making it so hard for me to get in on a follow up at his clinic ughh I just seen my ent for a bad infection I have in my ear / I had surgery 2 years ago for this same problem which left me 80% death in my right ear and now this infection is back and turn out they left a foreign object left behind in my ear 👂 and this dont is give me a hard time about getting me into the rite surgeon OMG .. so my body ,mind and soul are literally about to shut down because I’m going CRAZY with all these illnesses and pain plus I feel like I’m just waiting around to die .. everyday is a struggle every breath i take is filled with pain, seriously pain. Need I remind myself I have 5 kids and 3 grandkids to take care of. And it breaks my heart because I’m all they got. My first husband was murdered 14 years ago. As if that wasn’t enough.. I’m surprised I’m not CRAZY or Dead by now ... SO LOST

[Vannessasedillo]

I'm sorry you're going through all this i feel lost also right now and I don't know how to feel alive at this point but I know I need the right expert to cure me hopefully, I'm going crazy right now because I'm really impatient just because my whole body and head feels dead my head dosint even feel right and I beem suffering from chronic axiety/pain/depression for over Year and I haven't seen proof for myself that tmj can be cured just have to live with it and treat it .your probly going through alot worse but I pray you get the right expert to help you asap and I mean asap because that not right what they did to you you need your life back ! We all do .

[MonicaFlash12 in reply to Vannessasedillo]

I agree with you 100% and if I’m walking rite now it because I have so much faith in God. And believe me any anxiety depression saddens and loneliness is all alike just different situations, I will pray for you to keep pushing forward in this cruel illness . And I know what you mean about feeling dead it’s like your a walking zombie I know the feeling to well. ❤️

[Vannessasedillo in reply to MonicaFlash12]

That what my fear is giving up on myself my faith . I prayed read the Bible cried to god so many times I kept telling myself he the one that was given me strength to get up And believe but now I'm crying scared because I feel so weak I feel like right now I'm losing faith because I feel dead but I'm thinking is it me losing faith or is it just my body making me think like that ugh axiety is cruel and depression became new to me kinda Because I cry every day now. 💔I guess it because too I haven't found the right doctor that cares about me and actually help me.

[MonicaFlash12 in reply to Vannessasedillo]

It’s your mind if you only knew how powerful the mind is and the signals it carry’s over your entire body, and it’s so crazy because once it send the signals of distress to you body your entire body will start functioning differently.. hang in there don’t give up , never give up. God is there even if we don’t get a answer rite away he’s there .. I’ve been on this rocky road for years and I’m still here alive today because of God. Sure we go threw many many downs but I have faith he will get us threw this. You aren’t alone on this.

[Vannessasedillo in reply to MonicaFlash12]

I'll try to be strong I don't know how but I'ma try 😞🙏❤️