Feeling hopeless and pointless about life

[Heruga]

Hi. So my anxiety has been fine these days and was able to lower it to 25mg zoloft and have been on that dose for 5 months but I am encountering a new problem that I've been kind of having for quite some time now. I've been feeling hopeless and I feel as if my life is pointless. Nothing really entertains me. I do have a very caring girlfriend and family(mother is divorced though) and I am currently working as a seasonal gardener, which was one of the things I always wanted to do in my career; to work outside with nature and maintain beautiful flower gardens. I also have future plans after this seasonal gardening job, which is to go back to school to earn a degree/certificate in horticulture. Everything sounds good in my life so far right? Well, for some reason I'm just not enjoying life. I don't enjoy work as much as I thought I would and the weekends feel extra short that I feel like I didn't get to spend enough time with my girlfriend. I just feel as if everything I'm doing is pointless and won't go anywhere with it. I don't understand why I'm feeling like this, I feel very nihilistic. Is this depression? Or some other mental illness that I have? 

[Evelynarnold]

Hi there, so sorry you feel so down. Is there anything that triggered this? I'm not a nurse but it does sound like depression. Have you talked to your girlfriend about your feeling? Or anyone in the family? Your life sounds very positive and you have a lot of things going on. Have you thought of talking to your doctor? Please seek some support and let me know how it goes. I'm here anytime you wish to sound of. Best wishes to you.

[Heruga in reply to Evelynarnold]

Nothing really triggered this and thats why I'm confused. Lol I've talked this to my girlfriend wayy to much to the point she is getting irritated. She's given me so much advice and support but it doesn't work for me. Same with my family. My dad says I need to find a therapist. But I have a really stubborn mind and its not that easy for someone(even close ones) to cheer me up. I haven't been to the doctor yet recently but I'll make sure to talk to him about this next time I visit. Thanks 

[Evelynarnold in reply to Heruga]

Great!! Let me know how it goes with the doctor. No one can help you, only support you. It's up to us to seek help and try everything we can to get through this. Remember you may feel alone but many people on this site feel the same. So letting it out is extremely important. Therapy might help. One day at a time ok. Be kind to yourself. Do what makes you happy and for now put yourself first. I really hope you find a solution to get you back on track. Life isn't easy. But I know it can get better. Keep in touch. Thinking of you. X

[Heruga in reply to Evelynarnold]

Thanks, although I am feeling a bit better compared to the last couple days..maybe cuz its the weekends..huh. But yea I'll let you know! 

[Agora1]

Hi Heruga,  have you been under doctor's care for reducing your Zoloft to 25mg.  Even though it's been 5 months, you just may be getting some symptoms of weaning off the drug and depression breaking through. 

[Heruga in reply to Agora1]

Yea we talked about it and he said 25 mg should be good since I've been improving with my anxiety and panic attacks. And I'm not sure if raising the dose would be the best idea.. I don't want any side effects of the med affecting me during work. 

[Agora1 in reply to Heruga]

Hi Heruga,  as long as your doctor suggested the reduction that's fine. I agree that raising the dose would not be the best idea.  Some meds make you so lethargic that it would be difficult to work.  I'm glad you have been getting better with your anxiety/panic attacks.  Love to hear success stories.  Enjoy your weekend.  x

[Heruga in reply to Agora1]

Thanks, you too! 

[Manchesterman]

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