So I have severe health anxiety and i'm on 40mg of prozac per day for it. I feel this has been just about taking the edge off but now its like its not working anymore. My anxiety has been dreadful the last 2 weeks. Iv started to read Claire Weakes book and I hope it helps me. I try to follow the advice to just accept the symptoms of anxiety for now but I cant do it. I have tried believe me but when i get chest pain, shoulder/arm/jaw pain its so frightening because I fear I am going to die right now so they are hard to accept, instead I just go straight to panic because apart from the fear of dying, I'm terrified my 8 month old baby will be on her own until I am found or my older kids will be the ones to find me and be scarred for life.
Im now worrying that I'm developing OCD because I'v downloaded an app on my phone that checks heart rate and I'm checking it about 50 times a day. I have deleted the app to try to stop myself but it lasts a couple of hours before I'v re-downloaded it.
I just don't know what to do, where to turn anymore. My GP is great but I feel she will actually have me committed if I go back to her again about my anxiety. I'v no support either, I find it hard to tell people about what I'm going through and my husband is basically a prick about it. He doesn't understand so tells me to snap out of it, that its all in my head and only I can cure myself. Probably true but its very insensitive the way he speaks to me. He also thinks medication is the devil and in the end it will make me worse instead of better.
Oh and I'm very out of shape and have a good bit of weight to lose since having my last baby and I can't do anything about it because I'm terrified to exercise. As soon as I start I get chest pains and I don't like the feeling of my heart beating fast!! So yes I'm just pretty much a mess right now. Thanks to anyone who has managed to read all this.