Sometimes I'll be living life then realize that my anxiety is quite low at the time and I'm actually not having obsessive worry or fear of impending doom/disaster. When I do that, it scares me and I end up making myself anxious because I feel as if I have to be in this state of hyper vigilance to ward off the next disaster about to befall me. It is like my anxiety helps keep the threats at bay. I know this isn't logical and I'm cheating myself out of enjoying the moments of life. Just wondering if anyone else ever does this?