Hi everyone, I'm very new to this. Like some of you im sure, I'm having a hard time believing all my symtoms are soley anxiety and depression based.
I have a 2 year old and the moment i got pregnant I stopped sleeping, mixed with relationship problems and being pregnant I started to feel down, my GP was aware and would keep an eye on me. After I gave birth I was still down and brought it to ky GPs attention he said if it's PP it would be chemical and I would need AD's.
Fast forward to now, I've probably slept through the night 10 times in the last 2.5 years ( wake up to pee or just wake up). Back in Jan I had a panic attack, at the time I didn't know what it was. I was dizzy and and my left arm went numb, I felt like I was on drugs, I ran outside and got some air, a week later same thing happened at a restuarant with my friend. Saw my doctor that week and he said it wasn't anxiety and maybe a pinched nerve and sent me to a neurologist who said it was stress lowering my blood pressure and Im about to pass out. Well things got worse! He ordered me an MRI(which I never got) and had an ECG, which I guess was fine. For months I was scared about my health and didn't seem to get better. My husband did research and though it was panic disorder.
A month or so after that I had the flu and was having a hard time breathing a week or so after. I went into my GP couldn't even sit in his office, I was in a sweat and had to open the door. He said I had bad anxiety and gave me clonazepam to help me sleep and hopefully get rid of anxiety. I'm SCARED of pills don't even take Tylenol so I never took them. My left side of my body kept going numb my fingers arm and face, and tightness. I couldn't work anymore, quit my job and recently had to quit school.
At this point I feel like I'm living in ground hog day, I feel like life is a dream and this isn't real, someday I can barely shower. If I didn't have kids Id be in bed all day, I'm dizzy exhausted and feel like a zombie. I won't leave the house anymore and having friends over is uncomfortable I feel like it's not real. I don't get excited for anything anymore.
My husband went into my doctors cause I can't leave the house. My GP gave my hubby Pristiq and Lorazepam and says I wont get better if I don't take it, he knows how scared I am of pills and 2 weeks later I still haven't taken them. My GP told my husband he's 100% positive this isn't a health issue its depression and anxiety. Everyday I'm struggling and my kids and starting to get affected by my mood. I feel like I'm going to faint everyday and like a truck hit me. If anyone has advice or can relate please let me know.
I have a CBT therapist who I've had 2 phone sessions with because I can't leave the house.
Thanks everyone im hoping talking about it will help me either take these pills or snap out of this.