Sorry I don't want to scare anyone but I'm in floods of tears today.
11 weeks ago I started going through a horrific time. I've posted before about the extreme stress I went through and it's only just ended. My son was bullied all of last year and he became crippled by panic attacks all day in school. By October he told me he was suicidal. My world fell apart and I fought constantly for the childrens mental health team to help. They assessed him and refused saying id be the best person to help having had anxiety. My gp was outraged. During this my daughter was ill a lot and off school. I felt drained as I have no support. I was cleaning up sick every morning because my son was being sick with nerves. I'd have to force him into school and receive texts all day begging me to help him. It was awful.
I started suffering with a feeling the ground was moving or I was dropping as I walked. This became a daily constant feeling when I walked about. My gp came out to see me twice. He did balance tests and he said i didn't sway or fall, muscle tests all fine, walking ok, bp normal it's only 105/70. Oxygen fine. Eyes fine. Reflexes fine. He said no signs of anything at all wrong. Bloods normal too other than thyroid sluggish and cholesterol raised. He said see how things go but he was sure it was panic and stress as I'd been through a terrible time.
Well for 2 weeks things felt a bit better over christmas then after Christmas once the children were back in school it returned after one weekend I woke up and felt dizzy in my head but more like when I lay down and turned overy in bed I felt my head wobbly. It passed after that weekend so I didn't bother my gp. Then the floor bouncing returned. It feels like I am walking on a trampoline and my thighs are super heavy. I feel very bad fatigue but I have since summer last year it'd just got worse. So for a few weeks I've tried to believe it's just anxiety because I am terrified every time I stand up. I'm scared to walk around scared to go out. All because of my weak heavy legs and bouncing feeling as I walk.
Then today I woke up feeling like my head was bunged up. No cold but feeling my head was heavy and very foggy. My cat woke me in the night being so noisy so I didn't have the best of nights. I feel awful walking around. I feel weak and my eyes feel heavy and dizzy. I'm terrified walking round because I feel weak and floor moves. I'm scared today as it's in my head and it's always just the trampoline feeling.
I burst into tears just now to my husband and said I'm scared I've a brain tumour. I said I don't have headaches but I've felt sick since last night which I don't usually have. I lay down sobbing and said to him for 11 weeks now I'm no use to my family. I just take my kids to school then lie down most of the day afraid to walk around my house. I struggle to cook but I do it. I then rest once my husband is home. I wear a bobble hat all the time since this started like some kind of comfort and I feel a freak 😢😢😢😢 I'm now terrified I've a brain tumour and scared I should go to hospital. My husband said no you're just exhausted as we had a rough night and you're super anxious.
Can anxiety make you feel this bad? Every day I feel weak in my legs, afraid to walk, fatigue beyond belief, I cry all day, my eyes sting and are heavy, brain fog, rubbery legs and like ground bounces as I walk......I'm so afraid today as my eyes feel giddy and feel when I walk around I will faint. Which hubby says is panic. I dono think I have panic attacks but I have high anxiety all day right now 😢😢 I've lost my life. I was agoraphobic 3 years ago after my anxiety disorder started but things got better and I had my life back until all this stress and these symptoms started. I never go out other than the school run or with hubby for a drive as im too scared to feeling like this. I'm so afraid. I'm only 36. I have 3 beautiful children and I scared I'm going to die and leave them 😢😢😢