Hey everyone am here to seek advice I know the topic my fault as it deffo wouldn't of aided how I feel now. Am 24 and would say scine I was 18 my life been upside down
Basically 5 weeks ago I quit cannabis as I knew I was having mini panic attacks because of it I say I've used heavy for 3 years but the last year has been by far the worst as it lost my business a unborn child my liecence and nearly ended up in prison nearly year ago in that time my drug use got worst, I smoked day and night if I was awake it was going be smoked .... Before this 6year ago I was in life changing crash were I felt my best mate die on me I almost died as the car flipped and submerged in water, my other best mate who sat in the back seat is now brain damaged .. I came out with bad back and life of guilt I wasn't driving but wished I could got them out, in that time non it felt real and this is the start of my drinking problems which quickly led too smoking cannabis aswell, I would drink most days and smoke .... In that time I changed I couldn't keep job, spent all my cash, very little disregard for my future ( blew £10,000) in savings on drinking partying etc ...in that time I also became nasty and aggressive ..... If I was out and someone said something about the crash that wasn't true you can ensure a fight would start!
Recently met someone who help point me in right way she stuck by me thick and thin ! In last year she put up with my cannabis smoking ..... I do also suffer from adhd and autism along with depression and post tramatic stress disorder
Scine quitting 5 week ago
1st week of quitting I got to my new job and threw up I didn't want be there lighting was scaring me and felt intimidated by the new boss.... Lost the job the same day and had sickness and dirhorrea, by 2nd day my head felt full and horrid, I was looking at everything confused didn't understand anything around me ! I felt so bad even confessed to my mum why I might feel so bad! As she had no idea I was abusing drugs
This is when I got bad feeling all the time like something is missing or something bad going to happen
By 2nd week
I got bad headaches and nothing felt real ! I was scarred of everything and would wake up sweating well dripping in sweat with only sleeping for 3 to 4 hours and if I slept longer I would kept waking up like something bad happened! Vivid wild dreams, felt like I had something seriously wrong with me.
Got so down I didn't want go out and would let the feelings control me! Even using a power drill made me feel shakey felt like it still on, I was totally unable to relax I just felt on edge constantly
Wouldn't eat thought going too die my head felt confused scared of reality still, was constantly tired , waking up sweaty hands and feet ..... Everything felt too bright and didn't like going out in public felt like my ears needs to pop all the time! With horrid pressure, although became more socialable it always be worst on Saturday and Sunday.... One night got so angry that had no idea what to do I wanted throw myself into traffic to stop the feeling :/
I got bit motivation back i started exercising and even left my town cycling etc! But then Friday night came the same day I confessed to my mental health specialist everything on what went bad in my life ... I felt so ill everything looked so bright .... I had constant thirst! I drank 2l water while sat in waiting room in a n e! Docs did full blood test etc and ensured I was perfectly healthy ,, rest the weekend I was Ok but still feeling abit all over
Now on week 5
I feel like there pressure still in my head, now then stuff still going bright often feel like my ear needs to pop but I can sit and relax with my gf ! I enjoy my food again and can even have a sociable drink I did have abit of little episodes this week like feel dizzy head feels stuffy with pressure, woke up after 15mins feeling like slept all night but body was all numb and tingles , ignored it went back to sleep for 8 hours! Once woke up was abit scared that was going feel horrid still, was ment go Christmas dinner with some sort of group was happy with the idea wasn't scared but in back my head I was thinking what if someone there who hates me sudden my body went tingly numb etc !
Am here seeking advice as it help me recover I try accept it anxiety disorder and it be a lot of build up stress over the years but at same time I never felt like this in my life it scary and upsetting especially when take everything to heart and people who take Micky saying it might be brain cancer. I was given strattera to help but am so scaed to try them Incase I have side effects! I cut caffiene out my diet and cut sugar down sorry post is so long and my grammar not the best but need full story to get a proper answer.