I've decided to list a few of my bothersome anxiety symptoms here to see who could relate. I've always been an anxious person, since childhood and did have it at an all time low about 2 years ago when I actively meditated. I more or less still try to meditate but am struggling getting back into the routine I had before, but I do know it is possible. I have been seeing a therapist for the first time for about a month now, the talking it out does help a bit, I've never reached out for help for anxiety in the past. I had major panic attacks while in high school and never understood why they were happening. I'd feel a sudden urge of dread while sitting in class, I felt trapped and the need to escape, sweaty palms, pounding heart - the whole nine. Anyways, more recently my anxiety has peaked. For whatever reason, my body has had enough and physically expresses these symptoms. Me being a hypochondriac with health anxiety, doesn't help at all. I also have a bit of social anxiety and am extremely non-confrontational. When I need to confront someone or they confront me about anything, my body shakes and heart pounds. I've been that way since I was very young. My mind is convinced I am always misunderstood and alone in this. I am considering anxiety medication and would like to know what is out there for meds, since I will be asking my doctor for medication soon. My anxiety, like any is numbed by alcohol, too much however makes it worse, I have to know my limit. My older brother is also a highly anxious person and is a severe alcoholic, a path I'd like to avoid - hence my desire for anxiety meds as opposed to drinking it all away. Anxiety also runs in my family, my mom has always been a nervous person, my dad is prescribed anxiety meds, paces with an anxious mind, etc.
Below is a list of my symptoms which do come in go, in various degrees either in pairs, by themselves, or multiple symptoms at once. I obviously have the emotional symptoms of anxiety so I will simply list the bothersome physical ones that always convince my mind I am dying...
-occasional hypnic "night jerks" (right when I am about to fall asleep my head slightly jerks and wakes me, sometimes this will only happen once, sometimes a few times and sometimes will be continuous after a night panic attack.)
-occasional night time panic attacks (I wake up feeling like I lost my breath, heart pounding, but after a few minutes I am fine, just exhausted)
-pins and needles in hands/feet
-occasional heart palpitations
-nervous tick of the head/neck
-band around the head/heavy head feeling.
-shakes/tremors/chills (these have waded off a bit as of today)
-a few more but these are the most common.
like I said most of these are controlled when drinking, like they are not even there...
Mentally I always think about the "worst case scenario" and how I would handle it or picture it in my head.
It's a very frustrating and irrational way to live, and I know this thinking is habitual and something I need to overcome. I am hoping meds and further therapy, and even this website will help me out. I am so ready to get this under control once and for all. Any feedback/support/similar stories would be much appreciated!