All the advice received last week was really lovely so thank you for that.
As a result of the break up and those horrible thoughts and feelings I were having seem to have finally subsided. Since I last spoke on here I have been to the doctors who have given me sleeping pills and are reviewing me weekly to see if I need the anti depressants. I have also had two councelling sessions and I went to a life drawing class to try and get myself into a schedule again by myself.
I think a lot of you will have picked up from my previous post that I was very attached to my boyfriend. I must admit I am still talking to him and right now i am unsure about what is best for me. I suppose I will learn in time for myself. It is very depressing for me knowing I have to get a ton of uni work done with the slight possibility of seeing him around uni, I am trying to avoid him at all costs because I know it will just upset me.
I am still waking up panicking but the sleeping pills have been a god send although I wished I could sleep all day.
I am starting to make some decisions about my new life by myself and I'm finding it quite excited although 75% of me still yearns for my ex. It is an incredible force and when I think about it it compells me to tears.
Still struggling but I think it's because I have to be at uni and I have to get my work done.