sorry all but i thought i will just express how i feel or i will just explode, i am feeling very sad today and crying, i just wake up feeling nostalgia and was checking my facebook and came across my ex who is getting married soon, my heart just sank and can't stop crying!!!
the girl is younger, prettier and has a great job of being general manager of her own company!!
feeling like i failed my life, like i did not finish my uni and i am in my thirties now working in a payroll office, it feels i haven;t achieved anything in my life, and my ex left cz i am not smart enough!! am so sad, we were best friend for long time before dating me and my ex and when we broke up we wanted to stay friends but his gf now did not let him see me although i will never cross the line but she just took him away!!! they broke up few times and every time he start talking back to me and tell me horrible things about her, suddenly i haven't heard from him for a long period just to come back after few months saying they are back together and getting married!!! when they broke up few times they stayed friends while he was dating someone else, so how come she wouldn't let him speak to me?? she did not apply the same rule on her!!
i miss him so much and upset from him that he could give up our long friendship just cz he told him so!!!
sorry for that today but i just wanted to express my sadness, no one else will listen am very very sad