I feel completely and utterly hopeless right now. While I had a lovely Christmas morning, for the past three weeks I've been feeling constantly anxious and shaky and I'm just so ridiculously tired. I don't have a clue what to do about it anymore, or calm myself down. It feels like all the distractions and self-care ideas I had in place just aren't working anymore and I feel like I'm going mad.
I'm a uni student, and I've been stressed with things while at uni (miles and miles away from home) and now actually being at home, although to be honest it feels like any uni responsibilities are just 10% of all the things my brain is going crazy over. It feels like there's nowhere that feels safe anymore, and that no matter who I'm surrounded by - my flatmates or my family - I can't find myself a place to just calm down. It's like I'm feeling overwhelmed being at home, but also being outside. I nearly had a breakdown at a restaurant a few days ago because it was just felt so full of noise and my brain and senses felt like they were going to fry. I haven't been close to crying and having an anxiety attack in public for about 5 months now, and it feels impossible to recover properly.
I have work to do at uni in January, and at this point I feel like there is no way I'm going to be at a properly functioning level to actually get that work done. I don't know whether I should ask for an extension/extenuating circumstances, when (if you think about) all that's wrong with me is my brain being 'different' and not being chemically balanced (apparently). I don't know how I could explain to my tutors/department that I physically feel like I can't do anything.
I know this is just a long and rambling rant, and I'll look back on it and think wtf did I write - but I'd just like anybody to try and help me right now. I don't know what to do.