Haven't written a post for a while. Been bouncing along with the good days and bad ones, but I'm now starting to feel the anxiety and frustration well up in me again.
I started January with a lot of positives, all felt good in my world, I started to get job interviews and some of the feed back I was getting seemed very good. Yes, feedback is one thing, actually being offered a job is another. No offers and then you begin to question yourself. The negatives take over and before you know it the cycle has kicked in again, possibly not so bad this time but I think it is coming.
My biggest problem is in my working life. I was a LGV driver. The job that I enjoyed, the one I did for 30 odd years but I cannot do any longer because of a medical condition. Also because of the incident I was involved even though it was 10 years ago, driving begins to make me anxious even small journeys. I have recently been communicating with people through a different site and am starting to miss that role so much, just thinking of the different parts of the country I visited.
Do I look for a similar job but with a smaller vehicle, knowing I won't be traveling the same distances as I once did, and fight the stress. Or am I just grabbing at straws because long term unemployment is beginning to look a near certainty. Shall I go and visit my GP and go all through this with him, or find some counseling some where to help me.
I really just do not know what to do for the best and would appreciate any advice or experiences any of you can offer me.