I have suffered with anxiety for as long as I remember but the last few years have been the worst and quite frankly sheer hell....some days I can't even face going out one because I always feel so drained and two because the fear of being judged and being criticized just overwhelms me. I have found peoples opinions and sheer lack of understanding really damaging. People think because you look so tired all the time you are automatically taking drugs or because you dont participate in activities with family because of how you feel you are being ignorant and unfair. They really have no idea.......
I was made redundant in December which was a very really tough time..it was a really stressful job but all the same I loved it and was really upset when I left. I was made redundant 2 years before in another job I loved too so I suppose all it did was bring back bad memories and a lot of upset. I suppose I felt lost and confused, it really knocked my confidence too.
When I left I told myself at first that I needed some time off to get my head straight, to have some time for me and to decide in which direction I wanted to go with my career. I accepted a job a few weeks ago but due to my anxieties and how unconfident I feel I just couldnt do it
How do you get a job when you feel like this all the time? I keep telling myself its because I'm not ready yet and I need more time but will I ever be ready? Will I ever stop feeling nervous all the time? Any advice would be greatly appreciated :(.