Despite I'm happy that it's Christmas, that I'm on holidays, spending more time with family and that I'm so happy with all the presents I have to give still I feel more anxious these days and worried that I might feel bad (like having palpitations, or a panic attack or something) on Christmas night, or on Christmas Day when all my family gathers together... Last Christmas after everyone was asleep I couldn't sleep with palpitations, just couldn't calm down, I guess I feel like something bad can't happen to me on such a special occasion... Some Christmas before other episodes also happened, even with different "symptoms"... I can rationalize this, still I am afraid!
Merry Christmas everyone! xxx