Hi all, what a day so far, woke up feeling like id been hit by a bus and drained of life essence. Headache and eye strain, so much for the counsellor saying go to bed earlier , I did by half an hour and woke with panic attacks first in 4 month My head is full of dread and despair and I want to cry. Why did she have to say I talk as if i'm going to die, I'm panicked now. She may have me locked up in the nut house, mind you its better than suffering and id go if the helped. I also overslept as I had a crap night and now feel like the gruffalo big scary and angry. (My son is gruffalo obsessed and its mammy on a bad day lol).
My neighbour called round and I couldn't and didn't want to chat , I felt panic coming and froze to my spot and rode it out. New one for me normally I run and cry. Now I feel like I wanna crawl away and hide.
Tried to read my book At last a life and it was so boring, its just what I've read in leaflets from my therapist, no disrespect to the bloke he did well but its not for me. Half of the book is just extracts from his twitter account and such. In my gruffalo state i tore it up an binned it. I know slightly ott but was in a grump.
Im now going to have a coffee my first of today first drink of today in fact. My hubby says Im dehydrated thats why im grumpy pft to him. Ive got my new book The happiness trap hope fully i will feel happier once i read the first chapter lol xxx