Spaced out.

[Chellybean18]

So im bored at work. Feeling extra spacey today...what gets me is why am I anxious still even though my ct scan showed nothing wrong with my brain? Why do I feel disconnected from my body and the world so bad!? Cant concentrate, feel disoriented, I get waves of fear...ive never experienced anxiety like this until now...usually id just have a 10 minute panic attack and then move on about my day...or have anxiety for a week or so then get over it...its now been three months since my anxiety ramped up this bad. Does it change as you get older sometimes? I guess today im just trying to understand it better...work with it instead of against it maybe...right now I just feel like my carefree days are done and I'll be this way forever...

[Agora1]

Chellybean, boredom will allow anxiety to move in. What you are experiencing sounds much like I experienced and do from time to time. The name for it is "free floating anxiety". It comes in waves and makes us feel uncomfortable throughout the day for apparently no reason. One of the reasons I believe for myself is that there is always

that ember of adrenaline that just doesn't die. It's like having a pilot lite on all the time, just waiting for any little fear to come along and BAM anxiety hits hard.

I use meditation several times a day as well as deep breathing throughout the day to

calm that nervous jittery feeling of anxiety. Accepting it as non life threatening is a start.

Find different methods that can reduce your stress and fears. In time you will be back

in control once more. Breathe Chellybean. Breathe in peace and calm and exhale your fears. You can do this. xx

[Chellybean18 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much 😊😊

[teemo1]

It's interesting that you brought up being bored at work. I think that is the main underlying cause of my anxiety. I no longer like what I do for a living. I've been doing this same job forever, and it's not interesting anymore and doesn't seem that important. But it pays well and it's close to home and I have a family to support, so I feel trapped. It's a claustrophobic kind of feeling.

I'm hoping that one of these days I'll figure out a better way of paying the bills that doesn't involve spending all day in this place where I don't want to be, with these people I don't want to be with. I think then I'll really start to get better.

[Chellybean18 in reply to teemo1]

Same I don't really like my job...its caused a lot of anxiety cause I dont know what will be happening from one minute to the next. But I cant get a new job if I'm this anxious lol. Horrible cycle.

[teemo1 in reply to Chellybean18]

Job searching is pretty tough when you're anxious and dizzy and your head's all foggy, isn't it?

I want to quit the daily grind and start doing a different kind of work from home as a freelancer. So more than a year ago I paid for online training to learn how. And I still haven't taken the course. *facepalm*

[Chellybean18 in reply to teemo1]

Omg sounds like something I would do...i just have problems moving on and changing things in my life. My mom's friend said she could get me in where she works but...i just can't right now can't live my life like this! Usually Id jump at that opportunity cause I need to be making more money. But also gotta take care of myself

[Agora1 in reply to Chellybean18]

All that's going on Chellybean is contributing to your anxiousness.

We do not and cannot tolerate changes as well as surprises. I understand the

fear cycle you are in prompting you to stay stuck. Are you in therapy? xx

[Chellybean18 in reply to Agora1]

Yeah I feel really stuck. But not yet I have an appointment for therapy beginning of December so hopefully I can get my life on track then

[Agora1 in reply to Chellybean18]

I'm glad to hear you have therapy beginning soon. I've been in the same position as you (not in regards to my work) but any life situation that doesn't change continues to perpetuate the anxiety. It's a terrible place to be in. I think you will

be okay once therapy starts. Hang on my friend, help is coming xx

[Chellybean18 in reply to Agora1]

I sure hope so 😊 1 day closer to recovery I keep repeating haha.

[stormyblueseas]

For me, I experienced this kind of extreme anxiety and really couldn't figure out (neither could my doctor) what was triggering it. I am pretty sure it was a lot of things. But like some of the posters have responded, being bored does allow anxiety to manifest. Some things that have helped me is journaling, avoiding/limiting caffeine (somehow when I drink caffeine it is worse for me), and exercising more when I am feeling it come on. It's definitely hard at work ... so I will sometimes take my 10 minute break and go for a walk. :). I have also really been working on mindfulness. While the response is definitely physical, it is also mental too. When I feel a panic attack coming, I remind myself it is not real and try to redirect my attention. Most of the time it works. Not always.