I've just been to the doctors, I booked this appointment a week ago, and I should have done it sooner. I went in purely for mental reasons, nothing physical. I have been promised for over 1 year now that I would get medication once I turn 18 without decline, well guess what, they lied again! My doctor said she doesn't want to prescribe until I'm 20, and I need to see a consultant psychotherapist until I am allowed it, what sort of rubbish is that. CAMHS were supposed to refer me to an adult mental health team 4 weeks ago, they still haven't even contacted them about me!! Apparently meds aren't any less dangerous to me just because I'm 4 weeks over the age of 18, so why on earth is the age limit set to 18 and above? The whole 'you can't have it until you're 18' thing is rubbish too, I know loads of kids and teens under 18 on high whack medication.
So yeah, I'm just another kid failed by the NHS. If I die, it's their fault, and I will soon enough as I already feel like a lost cause, and they just back up my theory by saying there is 'nothing' they can do! Nobody post underneath about calling for the crisis team, they are rubbish too.
I will carry on screaming this until someone finally pulls their finger out and helps me, and people in the same situation. We don't pay tax for healthcare just to be fobbed off and left to suffer! Damned if you do, damned if you don't, what way is there out of this mess.
When I described my symptoms she looked at me in disbelief. I haven't bathed in 2 weeks, my bedroom is swarming with flies because I haven't cleaned my guinea pigs out in 2 weeks, I have only left my bedroom for the toilet in 6 months, I haven't eaten over 1000 calories for 8 months, and I looked like absolute deaths door today, what more do they need. If they want me to have a heart attack from stress, just so I'll be one less to care about, they are going the right way. No jokes here.