I have had bad anxiety and panic disorder with agoraphobia for about 2 years now and it really is rubbish! I'm always prodding my neck coz it feels like there is something in there and the hearing in my left ear has gone slightly and there is always a dull ache or throbbing sensation around it! Is that normal? I saw a therapist a while back and some of it was really helpful, but when she kept trying to relax my brain, i just can't seem to do it, my brain is working overtime trying to think of what she was asking me! Im doing better at going out than I used to be, it's just i am terrified of going too far! My brother seems to be the only one i can go out with coz he just makes me laugh, but he has just asked me to go on holiday with him and my niece and the thought absolutely terrifies me, i really love the place he has asked me to go to and i know i should face my fears and just go, but the idea just leaves me in shear terror and i dont want my niece to see that, but I really hate saying no to my brother!! Ahhhh I wish my brain would slow down!!