Mental health teams suck.

[MuffinChops]

Blunt and to the point, they do... This site has been the most helpful to me, the real people that get paid to help are too far up their own arses to help anyone else, especially minors.

I've been forgotten about to the point of disaster, and my younger sister isn't getting the right help STILL, despite being hospitalized twice this year for suicide attempts, she's only 14 for christ sake! CAMHS offer her a crappy counselling session once per month with a judgmental therapist, uh, hello, what the hell is that going to do? My sister has been extremely bad over the past couple of days, she's going in to my mums room every 30 minutes crying and screaming, saying nobody is helping her. Mum is doing everything she can, but my sister just refuses anything she gives, we don't know what the hell to do. So I'm up at 3:45am, just waiting for mum to make the crisis call, again.

I feel like dog poo on the side of the road at the minute, I have jacked myself up on painkillers, I don't even need them, but they zonk me out and help. I haven't eaten in 4 days, and I'm not planning on eating any time soon, I don't get a bloomin chance with all this commotion, and the family complaining there is never any food. I feel bad for eating the food, because it means somebody else might go hungry because of me, and it helps me to lose weight by not eating, I was going to fast at some point any way. It's not even me that eats it all, it's my OH when he comes round, he could eat for England. This is going to sound harsh, but I don't want to spend time with my OH anymore, I haven't done for about 6 months now. The pathetic reason is, I tend to eat more when he comes round, because I don't want to be questioned for not eating, so I simply don't want to see him any more so I can concentrate on not eating, his company/MYSTUPIDHEAD ruins my weight loss progress.

I haven't really felt anxious, I don't think? My brains going ten to the dozen so I haven't got time to sit and be anxious. No, things are not getting better, only worse, and I feel a sense of failure when I begin College again next month!!

I feel like I have no voice, and nobody cares, which is why I keep my gob shut about everything. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, for an asthma check and a contraception check (I'm not pregnant btw in conclusion to previous blogs...) so I'm going to ask politely for medication, and kick my referral up the butt. Now I'm an adult, I know I'll be whacked on meds and forgotten about, lets just hope the 'professionals' have their shields at the ready.

[missrat]

This sounds awful. When you are at college, is there a college counsellor?

I've just come under the care of the CMHT Older People! Great visit - hate the title! I may be 67, but I am not 'old'.

I do hope you can get some help.

Ann xx

[wallflower_fairy]

Hi Muffin

I know I can relate to what you're saying about health services in general as when I was going through all the crap all those months ago and and leading up to Christmas I know I felt unsupported and desperate and that there was no one to turn to, other than here I mean. And of course my friends - but whom I didn't want to burden with all my woes. My feeling was that: 'I'm just being left to rot'. Nice, huh? You're right in what you say about services in different areas and are highly admired for speaking out about how you feel. That doesn't change the situation though. *Chews lip*.

I just don't know what I can suggest...all I do know is, there are plently of members of the community who genuinely want to help people and make a difference without imposing judgement. But it isn't always easy finding them, however, they are out there. They are also pompous little know-it-alls who exude arrogance, intimidation, and impose prejudice and judgement on their clients. I wouldn't go as far to say as all this sort abuse their position, but some do. Most are just ignorant and don't have the qualities it takes to be in the jobs they're in. I suppose they are just humans themselves and get it wrong, and there's a difference between successfully getting the qualification for their job and actually being suitable for it. People need to be committed, have a genuine desire to do their job, alongside a real passion for it, they also need to be mindful and focus on treating the individual, rather than their label, and mindfulness that everyone is different. With this in mind, I suppose it isn't so difficult to spot the difference between these 2 type of people - but most of it comes down to instinct. I just want you, and your little sister, to find someone who has a willingness to help you and compassion. Most it comes down to instinct, so if you're sister doesn't feel happy with the counsellor assisting at the moment - can she request a new one?

Good luck with the doctors tomorrow. There's no harm just bringing up what has happened within the past couple of months, even just in passing...

Keep us posted Muffin, we worry about you.

Gentle hugs

Flip flip xoxo

[wallflower_fairy in reply to wallflower_fairy]

Just said 'mind' at least 3 times, I meant to delete half of one phrase but forgot which is why some of it came up confusing. Half asleep.

Laptop seems to be working better now I have installed some updates.