yes ive just woken up. im really nervous and my body is in so much pain from tension, i feel like the tin man who has gone all rusty.
im a bag of nerves since my OH returned to work after having her appendix out. She was off for 2 months and it was nice to have the company. now im alone again and the demons are back. I feel like im in a modern version of The Divine Comedy only paradise is not featured in this version.
I didnt take my meds for a couple of days but started to take them yesterday, surley just two days off wouldnt turn me into the mess i am at the moment, not being able to sleep, creeping round my house like im a burgler and avoiding the front door at all costs. Im suppose to be going to get cat food but i cant face it. i feel like im letting my OH down again when i promised her, when she went back to work, id do the shopping, i cant even face leaving my bedroom.
anyway, i hope the rest of you good people are as well as you can be. Lots of love and thanks for listening.
xxx Love Cookie xxx