Took my other half's presents and shopping up to his today. Love it up there in the Dales.
Came away upset today. Blubbed like a baby on the way home. I used to never cry.
Maybe i have hoped for too much. He rang me while i was there. He is going over to see his Mum tomorrow and she is staying with him over New Year for a few days................................Hello do i exist. Where am i in all of all this?
Feeling like a spare part. Cant win he comes and sees me last week, felt on top of the world. Today feel totally the opposite. I sent him a text saying i need a few days to seriously think about things, and i will get in touch with him. He can take time out to see his Mum and i am kept in the background again.
The few xmas cards he had were just his name on them. Its like the relationship doesnt or hasnt even existed. His friend from Scotland did the same. Think they resent me cos he moved back down here.
Sorry for the rant, but so brassed off with it. Sounds like its all about me
Love Lou. xxx