I've never written a blog post before but today I finally am! I find my anxiety very draining, however I never ever let it stop me from getting on with my life! I'm a very happy person, I enjoy life and all the things in it... Apart from my anxiety. I constantly fear something bad is about to happen, I worry about things I know are completely ridiculous, such as the world exploding! I also worry about more realistic things such as something bad happening to someone I love. I don't like to go anywhere on my own; I'm a student nurse and when I have a placement if I can't get a lift then I will pay for a taxi! Next week I worked out I will pay approximately £100 in taxi fees...madness! Anyways today I woke up and for the first time I thought to myself 'I just can't do it today, I can't go to placement and do all the things I have to do that will make me feel anxious'. I gave in, which is something I never do!! And now I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself, wondering if the anxiety will just completely destroy me one day... It's like some awful disease that just creeps through you taking over every inch! I just want to enjoy life to the maximum and stop worrying! Before you ask I see CBT therapist who also does hypnotherapy with me and I take 10mg a day of escitalopram. Please don't get me wrong, this is a very unlike me day which I guess is why i feel so down! I just have one question....when will this all end?