A slightly better day today......

Had a bad few days...even writing a couple of short paragraphs was a mammoth task for me

I think it started last Thursday when I went to do a couple of hours voluntary work, nothing too hard, but I think it brought on massive anxieties followed by a big low because it was memories of work,,,it was very close to where I was working a couple of months ago...as a result I took big steps back....

It's unbelievable how you can feel even reading a paragraph of what someone had written was too much to take in...my mind was blown for a few days...I was exhausted and had done very little..hard to describe what it's like..kinda like something pressing hard on both sides of your head,,and as if you had just completed a few days on a big project and your mind is blown...I could not think straight at all...

Today my mind has felt much clearer for the first time since last Thursday, and it is a relief....I could never have imagined how bad you can feel...

I will be reviewing what voluntary work I do now, I think I will try something totally different to the office environment and try to do it away from my previous work environment...so it's back to the drawing board on that one .....

Over the last few days feeling very ill I appreciate today and hope tomorrow is a peaceful day too...it is a battle for us and at times it's not nice at all...I still have a determination to win, I nearly admitted defeat over the last few days...it is hard..

It seems this is a much harder battle than I ever anticipated.....

Wishing everyone one of you a peaceful evening..

Love sue xxx

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Hope you have a peaceful one too.

B

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Ditto B

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Just noticed you changed your photie what a cute kid, can't be you surely

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It was, with my faithful cat nimmy noo, haha, just changed it again to an moody pot smoking teenager me lol

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haha

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Love your picture with the saying in, says it all

As you can see I'm bored, best get on with some painting.

Wishing you well

B

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Yes it does don't it

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Hi sue

I'm glad today is better for you. When you are so ill and then get a good day it's like phew, wow this is lovely. Setbacks do happen but keep going and more good days will come. On my bad days I can't take in a paragraph or do anything with my head. I am learning not to get frustrated by it and I do something physical until it passes. You are right it is a tough bumpy journey. I hope tomorrow is good for you too. Love eve x

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Thank you Eve

It helps to know your not alone with it...it truly is awful...

Hope you are well xxx

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Hi Sue

I am glad to hear you are feeling better than you have been

You have all our support

Love

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Thank you why why

Thank you for your support it truly is appreciated....

Hope you have had a good day

Sue xxxx

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Thank you why why

It really is appreciated..

I hope you have a peaceful night and a good day tomorrow

Sue xxxx

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Been on the sherry Sue

that's 3 times

Its a pleasure , hope your day is just as good as well

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The blummin site is playing up hahaha just noticed now LOL

Each message is different too as I changed it each time I tried ..deleted one and realised they all different ..you deserve them all so I will leave the other two on

No sherry , doing this sober imagine if I were intoxicated you would have about 20 hahaha

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Hope snap man doesn't start showing his face if the site is playing up because he is enough to drive you mad

Thank you for all 3 , I will gladly accept them

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Haha that bloody snap man could send me over the edge on a bad day I'm telling ya!!

If you do quite a long reply and then forget to copy it and his bloody face shows it really is enough.....that made me LOL Snap man ....I can't stand him xxx

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Glad you've had a better day hun....... I think Ive turned a corner too..... I was trying to upload my creation for today, but cant do it.... you on facebook?? xx

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Can't wait to see the creation

Well done Anne I know it's been a hard slog for you too..

Sue xxxxx

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When I see your name Anne I always put Anne....I'm a plonker!!!

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I'm still laughing I think that's cos I know he makes me so angry, I often feel I need anger management when I see his face !!!!

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Do you think we should tell Admin he is causing us anxiety

I could poke his eyes out

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Whoops sorry

I think not as sorry as I am lol

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Haha he really does cause anxiety with his stoopid face and daft hair hahaha, I'm laughing now but.when it happens I could throw things through the window hahaha

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Hi what next

Thank you for that..I have Been thinking on those lines....

It would be very different for me and I think better than trying the office scenario right now..

Thank you..glad it's going well for you too....

Sue xxxxx

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Lots of hugs and kisses Sue. Keep plodding along you are a Star with a capital S.

((((((((Sue))))))) xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Bev x

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Thank you so much Bev..

.Forever grateful for your sound advise on a number of occasions...

You are a much bigger star and you truly don't realise...

Lots of good wishes to you...and many thanks

Love sue xxxxxxx

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Aw thanks Sue. Yeah I am quite good on practical matters but I'm not big on emotions. Usually because I get very detached from mine. I don't then figure out anything is wrong until its too late or I don't know what is wrong and I can't tell people when they ask me. I have always found it very hard to talk about emotions or find the words to say to others who are having emotional problems. I can make jokes about it or talk about it when its over but at the time I can't speak I just ramble on saying nothing really.

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Well Bev you certainly helped me....sometimes it can be a struggle to deal with emotions for us all, I understand.....we all deal with things differently...I guess depending on our coping mechanism...

Those practical matters are so so important to people Bev and so help their emotions.....so ......you are not getting away with this.......you are a Star and I am forever grateful!!!

Sue xxx

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Aw thank you Sue that is very kind of you. I do try (people say I am very trying!).

Bev xxx

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you tried it and that most be a big achievement! well donex

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Thank you....

Sue xx

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I feel I am missing out here as I haven't come across this 'snapman'!!! Haha. Hope you had a good day and a more peaceful one. These setbacks are a real pain but only make you stronger and more determined to fight off this horrible illness that we suffer. I enjoyed my voluntary work when I did it but was in a new entrant class helping the teacher and also visited old people in two local homes. All staff were very appreciative. Try and find something you will enjoy and it will give you confidence. I now have a little, 14 hours a week, part time job in a school and it has been the making of me and has really helped with my problem. Who knows what is out there for you.Wishing you peace and good days ahead. All the very best. xx

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Haha Jeffju can't believe you haven't come across snap man, although I am pleased for you he is a pain in the backside....seems to appear when you finish your reply to someone and click on submit comment...when he appears you have lost all that you have written.....so it's good you have not met him

Thank you for your reply its really helpful and nice to know that worked out for you...

With all good wishes

Sue xx