I am not great at talking with people, so posting is hard for me. I have been dealing with abuse from my family for a really long time (Since I was 4).
Sexual (It is over he is dead, but it still bothers me), physical, and mental. I finally got away from them 2 years ago.
I am simi in therapy, but it is with a temp place and I am struggling. I feel like no one really hears me. And getting help has been like screaming into the void. My meds can only help so much. It is hard to be this depressed and have situational agoraphobia, plus C-PTSD and Anxiety.
I want to make friends, but I fear people. I just do not know what to do. Mentally I stopped aging at 18. Just do not feel like an older adult. I want to be happy, but I feel so trapped. I spend most of my days worried about one thing or another. My greatest of these is that my family may find me again. I am just so stuck in place. Any thoughts are welcome as long as they are kind.