An ongoing journey

[OceanBlues57]

My bouts of depression started with major infertility issues back in the 90s. We tried to have children of our own for over 8 years and finally decided to try adoption. We were blessed with a beautiful son in 2004, and added twin boys to our family through embryo adoption in 2005. In 2011, my husband of 23 years broke the news that he was gay and we were divorced within a year. I don't think I have ever recovered from that experience and often feel like a failure as a mother and in general. I am currently taking Bupropion daily, but I still deal with frequent thoughts of uselessness and fear of/anxiety about the future once my boys move on into the world and their own lives. At one point, I had a therapist that I really connected with and benefitted from who has now retired. I have tried several others since she left the profession but can't seem to find a good fit. I am interested in learning more about coping mechanisms and other options for battling my depression.

[jackiesj]

oceanblues57 Life events take alot out of us for sure. Curious if during the process you had injections for the eggs etc.Has your doc checked hormone levels thru the month or done anything like that.There certainly is enough guilt around being a human that no need to add it. I actually think of you as strong after going thru so much. Im sorry it was so very much. Reality hits when others make choices...you didnt make those choices and even when we do make a misstep we need to forgive ourselves and hard as this is...others. its not something i find easy to do overnight for sure. you got thru it. feel good about yourself that you are you. we all need help sometime.