Hey all,I wrote before saying how stress I was leaving my old job for a new one.
I trained my replacement. The last week was almost zen in my acceptance of leaving.
As soon as I left all hell broke loose at my old job. People got fired for trying to get their staff raises and people were wanting to quit.
I was still getting calls from my replacement and she said that I left at the perfect time.
I started my new job and the first 2 days I had the worst anxiety.
I was writing in the notebook I had several times that I was really stressed. It was meditating to acknowledge my stress.
I had a panic attack that I did not enter my time in correctly the first week. It was 11pm at night and I was with my boyfriend, I could not stop panicking. He did not know how to stop my panic attack. I could not even sleep and I was worried about it all weekend because I could not get ahold of my bosses until Monday.
I just could not breath!!!!
I have been trying to get faster to meet quota at my job because I do not want to be in training. They swamp my desk with work and I just want hit quota so that the red sign saying training will be off my desk.
My arms are hurting from the new movement and my tail bone hurts from the horrible seats.
I love my new job and the people that I work with. They are so nice and welcoming. My old job said that they would not spoil us but they provided food for 4th of July and we r getting BBQ today just because.
They asked for a resume for their records and I stressed about that. Once I actually did the task, I was fine, but my mind still reeled while I worked on how to complete the task efficiently.
I wish my brain would calm down and just enjoy what is around me.