Benzo Confusion

[SugaryStroll]

Benzodiazepines destroyed me. It messed up my memory, my vision, my hearing, my sense of touch, my strength, and just my general understanding of the real world. Now I am still lost and confused many years later. I don't understand the point of life, what to do. I am so overly fatigued, lost and confused, and don't know what to do with myself while still suffering with the inability to do a lot of stuff too. How do you find any kind of positive purpose to life? If there's nothing positive to live for, then how do you grow and get better (recover from how the medications mess one up)? It just seems like one stressor after another for the benefit of another depressing day. And let's do it all again for more boredom, depression, and lack of meaning. What is the point?

[BlueAgave]

That's terrible the medications had such a bad effect on you. I think in life we have to each find our own meaning. It can be very difficult when we feel so poorly. Even though most days it's difficult, I still try to find the beauty in things around me. The sun, nature and such. It's enough to keep going. I hope that you are able to find some beauty in the world, no matter how small, to keep you going. We are here for you.

[SugaryStroll in reply to BlueAgave]

Thanks. I'll try looking for some more beauty in my world. I do have my cat.