I'm Not Ok

[Breezyfeathers]

I'm not even sure what to say. Going through a breakup. I've experienced loss before (including divorce) but this one feels...I want to cry and scream and beg even though it ended in part because I wasn't ok with the situation. I'm torn in two and I'm not centered in myself and I've spent days on end doing the absolute bare minimum because I've had no energy for anything else.

[Dolphin14]

Breezyfeathers

Welcome to the community.

A break up is a loss and a loss requires grieving.

Give yourself some time to adjust

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[Turnipgirl in reply to Dolphin14]

I find myself that the passing of time helps to ease the pain when I have been confronted with various upsetting situations throughout life

[Dolphin14 in reply to Turnipgirl]

Turnip

I agree

❤️🐬

[secrets22]

Hello Breezy......breakups are a cause of unimaginable stress, and it affects every part of our being, the only thing you can do is wait for the storm to blow over, there is no easy way to cope with things of an emotional situation.

[Turnipgirl in reply to secrets22]

I remember when I was 17 and had broken up with a boyfriend and all my father did was laugh in my face when I was visibly upset which wasn't very nice!

How are you and the dogs getting on?

This week has been a busy week full of appointments and there's an inspection at home at 11.30am so what I am doing is catching up on jobs like washing whilst I wait and job applications, preparing for the weekend coming up, preparing for next week's course, catching up on French lessons and also general tidying and when she comes in I will feel I have been nice and productive catching up on things not full of anger and resentment over being made to wait around as waiting around makes me angry!

I have already cut up a swede for future dinners ready when I am that I got in marks and sparks yesterday for 65p when the market wanted to charge £1.45 which I thought was steep!

In regard to that cafe where they made that someone's hungry this morning remark last week I have vowed not to go back there again as that was rude and unnecessary!

[secrets22 in reply to Turnipgirl]

We are all very well, thank you for asking. I hope you get good news with the job applications.

[Turnipgirl in reply to secrets22]

I did do an assessment centre at Admiral on Tuesday and I am just awaiting the results but if it doesn't come to anything the world won't end!

To be fair it's been nice to have been in this morning not having to go to anything and waiting in for 11.30 to come round and lots has been done which is great!

Tomorrow its an interview at 11am in North Cardiff and then onto swimming at 2pm.

Yesterday it was the weekly depressing visit to the job centre where they ran late which didn't help my temper!

I have just been told off on one of the other boards for daring to talk openly about feeling angry about things!

If people are annoyed and it's not hurting you then leave them be!