I'm not bad I'm just stupid

[AlLeYkAt86-]

I'm not going to go into details because that could be compromising but I clocked out of work, got a call from work, turned the car around and dealt with the "issue". It was physical in nature unfortunately as de-escalation didn't work. Am I so empty feeling and self loathing that I want to help not because it's my job and I like the people I work with (yes to both) but I need some kind of identity. To be anything aside from, "oh yeah. Him." Or to deliberately seek potentially harmful situations as a part of justified punishment? I'm not sure this even makes sense but I wrote it down and that didn't seem enough so here I am again. Hope everyone is okay or getting there, or even better sleeping soundly.

[hypercat54]

Hi your posts (and replies) would be a lot more private if you locked them to this community only otherwise the whole can appear anywhere on the net. You can edit by clicking on the more button below. x

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to hypercat54]

Computer tech has always been somewhat mystifying to me, I'm from the point click generation. Thank you for the comment though. Realistically I'm fine in regards to some info. HIPAA and all that is still intact.

[hypercat54 in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

Me too but I have been here a long time and picked up a lot about how the site works. I have just put up a post about how to lock your posts for general information. x

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to hypercat54]

(the smiliest happiest face you could ever imagine without intoxicating chemicals)

[hypercat54 in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

Ha ha love it. Here are the faces I know x

To see how to do it hover your mouse over each one. Make sure you leave a space either side of them. x

[Sunshine425]

I wish I was sleeping soundly! Sorry youre going through a rough time. Sometimes work situations can be toxic... but you still have your personal life.. hope you find happiness. Treat yourself better. You deserve better. Youre not stupid.

[AlLeYkAt86- in reply to Sunshine425]

Reserve that comment until you've seen my SAT scores.

[Sunshine425 in reply to AlLeYkAt86-]

I think I am around the same age as you...SAT wasnt that like 12 years ago?? I went to community college and then failed at getting my bachlors. I work with children for a living because working with kids is all I know how to do... hang in there. Keep your head held high!