NOT OK AT ALL

[sophie4]

It's sophie4. I'm having an increasingly horrendous time with everything. I'm exhausted. I'm fighting an unmanageable depression. My anxiety level is off the charts. Guess I just wanted to tell you because there is no a soul for me to talk to with the exception of mt dear friends in our community. Doubt that I'd be here if it weren't for discovering you.

I don't want to bore you with a list of my major/minor troubles. So saddened to know that too many of you deal with similar issues.

Forgive me for not 'chatting' with some dear forum friends.

Goldieoldie, I think of you so, so often. Lilly, I've been wanting to answer your posts . Haven't been able to but I read them and you are most assuredly in my prayers and thoughts. Gee, maybe it's wrong of me to mention names...so I won't continue.

Just sinking. Just in psychic, emotional and physical trouble.

Just trying so hard to keep on keepin on.

[Hb2003]

Hello Sophie ☺️

[Hb2003 in reply to Hb2003]

how are you doing?

[Hb2003]

Do you want to talk ?

[sophie4 in reply to Hb2003]

Hi Hb2003,

End of hours and hours and hours of ...have no words...thanks so much for responding. Truly appreciated. How are you????

[Hb2003 in reply to sophie4]

I am great 😊 I was just worried about you

[sophie4 in reply to Hb2003]

Fantastic!!!!!!! So, so thrilled to learn you're feeling great!!!! Here...catch a ball filled with support!

[Hb2003 in reply to sophie4]

😊

[Hb2003 in reply to Hb2003]

your so kind 😊

[Hidden]

I'm sorry to hear this. I'm anxious and a bit depressed as well, so you're not alone. I hope knowing that helps somewhat

[sophie4 in reply to Hidden]

Well, knowing that we all share these experiences help me feel less alone, but I want you well, happier and calmer!!

[FearIsALiar in reply to Hidden]

Same here. Guess it’s all of us ! Lol

[sophie4 in reply to FearIsALiar]

At one time or another. Good to know we are all supporters of one another. How was your day and evening?

[FearIsALiar in reply to sophie4]

A bit rough 😣

[sophie4 in reply to FearIsALiar]

Oh my...I'm so sorry. I'm hoping we all feel better tomorrow.

[Hidden in reply to FearIsALiar]

Yeah, so was mine. If I can guess the reason why, I was up and down all night looking at the results. Sigh...I think this will take awhile.

[Hidden in reply to FearIsALiar]

Thank you! Yes, this goes for all of us

[sophie4 in reply to Hidden]

Hi Minniemouse,1234,

Knowing that I'm not alone helps to brings my life into perspective than thinking I'm adrift on an island. But I'm saddened to learn that you, too are in this battle. Feel as good as you possibly can.

[Hidden in reply to sophie4]

Thanks, hon. Much love to you!

[TheEmptyNest]

Oh Sophie... you are so not alone! I wish there was more that I could say to help! Just know that we're out here sending you love!

[Dakota11]

Hello Sophie

I am right there with you. It took everything just to get out of bed. My anxiety and depression have been very bad lately. Im so scared it will never get better. This hopeless and scared feeling is crippling. Im sorry to hear you don't have many people to talk to. If I didn't have my family I wouldn't be here. I am always here to talk if you would like. Sending you hugs. <3

[sophie4 in reply to Dakota11]

Thanks, Dakota11,

Your message is much appreciated. So sorry it has taken so long for me to reply. I'm very sorry to learn that you're battling these monsters too. You are so right!!!! The hopeless and scared feeling is crippling.

I too am always here to talk. Don't hesitate to get in contact with me. Can't promise anything other than understanding, but understanding is the beginning.

Please feel much better. And I'm sending lots of hugs right back to you!!!!

[Hidden]

Hi Luna. Have you heard from her?

[Hidden]

Oh, ok. That's good😃 You're welcome!

[Dallas_Cowboys]

Sophie4, you need to take a deep breath and just sit for a few minutes. Try and remember that you are in control. Depression is horrible and I can’t give you anything to say on that. There have been days on the couch crying and no one can help. The anxiety you can try what I do and that is to sit and take deep breath’s until you can tell yourself that you are stronger than it. I do as well have terrible anxiety and have been working on it for a while. You are worth being on this earth and we are all here to help. I’m sorry that you are feeling like this and I hope it gets just a little better. We’re here...

[sophie4 in reply to Dallas_Cowboys]

Thank you for sharing very wise comments...I appreciate you and the time you took to reply to my post.

[sophie4]

Thanks sweet lady. If I had gobs of money I guess, maybe, possibly I'd eventually find someone...but, since I'm at the opposite end of that spectrum, there are very, very few mental health services here. The level of expertise, training and experience of many therapists I've known is limited. And there's the 'connect' factor to consider as well. Therapists here are generally pissed off cause they aren't able to make the money the may well or may not deserve.

[hurtingheart1]

Hi Sophie wow you really seem like you are a very caring and empathetic person!!☺️💞💞I’m soo sorry you’re going through this wish there was more I knew of or could think of right now to say- my mind just feels kinda exhausted today I guess?? But please know you are definitely not alone and I’ll be thinking of you also & adding you in my prayers as well that you’ll feel much better soon& that you’ll have much more hopeful& happy days coming!!!!i wish & pray 🙏🏼🙏🏼that for all us on here!!!🦋🐥🐝🐌🐛🐢🐬🐬🐶🐶🐶🐼🐼🐼🐼🐰🐰🦉🐸🐒🐴🐴🦓🦓🐎🐎🦒🦒🐐🦌🐈🐈🐈🐓🐓🦜🦜🦢🦢🦩🕊🐇🦥🦥🦦🐿do you love animals sometimes it helps me watching funny adorable animal videos on YouTube there’s some super darling ones on there!!! Or I’ll watch inspiring stories about animals helping or saving ppl it’s very beautiful &amazing!!

[Pat9]

Hang on in there sophie4.. you are NOT alone as many of us feel like this, it is the events all accumulating up in the world that is causing extra stress.. please hang on as it will change, it has to as with all things this too will pass xx

[sophie4 in reply to Pat9]

Hi Pat9,

Thank you so much for your support. So very appreciated.

We sure are living in troubling times. It really does increase stress.

Hope you're having a good day.

Thanks again.

[Pat9 in reply to sophie4]

xxxx

[goldieoldie]

Sophie,my heart goes out to you you are not forgotton on here and that applies to me.So my advice is ,try and slow down,and when you cant muster any energy ,switch off,and try something nice ,love to you and to doggies. Struggling too but its ok for me ,thankyou for missing me.......

[sophie4 in reply to goldieoldie]

Hello dear friend, goldieoldie,

Yes, indeed I do miss chatting with you. Please realize that my sister suffers continually throughout the day and night with agony from back surgery. I try as hard as I possibly can to take the very best care of her and appear 'up'...I'm always giving her pep talks and emotional support. Each day I think of something special...today? A pedicure. I had planned that for a few days ago but she was in too much pain. The trick is for me to help her without her knowing it so she maintains her dignity. I am constantly rearranging things to make it easier for her...oh, goldieoldie, you would have a laugh if I told you some of the things I've come up with!!!!

So, my dear, you too are struggling. Of course, this saddens me, but you know I understand. Whenever I come up with new ideas to help soften the day, I try to share them with you although I've been MIA recently.

Please tell me what sorts of things interest you. Tell me everything!!

Sending you great big hugs!!!!!!!!!

[Hb2003]

Sophie listen to the song might U 😊

[sophie4 in reply to Hb2003]

Hello Hb2003,

I don't know how to find the song...it's called U? Maybe U-Tube.

How are you doing today????

I live with my sister who suffers with excruciating pain following back surgery and, most importantly, COPD. She needs a great deal of care, both physical and certainly emotional.

I just "met" you, Hb2003. Thank you so much for your support.

Is there anything I can do to support you?

[Hb2003 in reply to sophie4]

Nothing really I just am here to support others something bad happened yesterday and I changed my username my old username was Lilly 40 but that didn’t mean anything to me it had no meaning . but thanks for your kindness 😊 if you need me you chat with me anytime

[sophie4 in reply to Hb2003]

And you too!!! I'll look forward to chatting with you.

Very sorry to learn that something bad happened yesterday. I hope you're successful in resolving it.

[Hb2003 in reply to sophie4]

It has been resolved but I am still hurt from it I am such a sensitive person I cried Instead of leaving I got mad instead of leaving I got mad to the point where my fists were shaking i did the wrong thing crying in front of the whole class I honestly was about to flip out

[sophie4 in reply to Hb2003]

Oh my, I'm so, so sorry. Try to calm down and know that many, many students have felt, or have cried in front of the whole class. I'm thinking of you...sending you my support.

[Hb2003 in reply to sophie4]

Thank you so much ❤️😊

[sophie4]

You hit the target right on! It IS not only a day to day battle...it IS minute by minute. I ache for the newly diagnosed people and for those experiencing worsened symptoms.

How are you doing???

[sophie4]

Hi Detroit_Lions,

Still battling but overwhelmed by all the loving support. Life is especially tough now...even a 'regular' day is very hard. I'm trying to hold on...HAVE to function.

How are you??? I'm not sure if I've read your posts before. Hope today is a good one. Take extra good care of yourself!!!!

[pam4him]

So sorry you are struggling. This year has not been kind. I'm glad you reached out as there are kindred souls here. I would suggest trying to answer your friends so they won't feel alone either. I know it might be hard, but it can also help to share and release some of what you're feeling by answering them. This crazy year is almost over and I am looking forward to 2021. A new year brings new hope. Keep on keeping on. Prayers for peace and strength.

[sophie4 in reply to pam4him]

Thank you for your kind words as they are much appreciated, Pam4him.

I'm looking forward to leaving 2020 and greeting 2021. This has certainly been a year of great sadness with the global pandemic. As the holidays are approaching, I am thinking about all the people who lost loved ones to Covid 19. I am thinking of all the people suffering throughout the world with this deadly virus. My heart is with them and their families.

I'm thinking about the first responders and the huge debt we owe them.

I'm glad I reached out as I agree with you, their are many kindred souls within our forum...old souls as well.

You have my warmest wishes for a healthy, joyous, safe, holiday season.