Overwhelmed Again!!

[PenguinQueen44]

I have been overwhelmed lately. I stopped all of my meds for depression and anxiety, which is making my daily life difficult. I know I should be on medication, but I have never found the right combination to help me thrive in life. I have lost the trust in my doctors to help me feel better.

Work has been interesting!! The lady who hired me, and who was my boss, quit the company right before Christmas because she thought it was not a great fit for her to be there. Without her at the company, my roll has been shaken. My stress levels are through the roof. I wake up in the morning dreading the day of work.

I am trying to find another job, but that is not going well. I feel so defeated.

My roommate got ear surgery and she is depending on me to help her. She has learning disabilities so I help her in every day life, but now I am worrying about things that I did not needed to before. She was responsible for her pets and she cleaned the apartment, but I helped when I could because I worked a full time job and she she stays home on disability. She could work, but she is stressed out about it and her brother who is her power of attorney is not helpful to get her what she needs.

I am handling everything and she is supposed to be resting, but she is frustrated that she has to do less for a while and tries to be sneaky in doing not what the doctor said for her to do. I have to watch her because she thinks it is funny to misbehave.

I AM OVERWHELMED!!!

I have been having the suicidal thoughts again, but I am doing the techniques that my previous therapist told me to do.

I am struggling!!!

I hope things get better soon.

[Shnookie]

please talk to a therapist if you have one or talk to your GP about your meds. U might be feeling overwhelmed because U chose to go off everything. Your meds might just neede to be tweaked

[LoveforAll41]

Yeah, I would say maybe try finding another doctor to work with meds. I think that a psychiatrist or someone that works with someone mostly on meds for anxiety/depression is much much better than a GP.

That roommate situation sounds very hard. Did you know her before she was your roommate? I don't feel that you should be that responsible for someone who is just a roommate. Perhaps someone else can step up there or you can find a way to worry less about it? Have you talked to other people about your role at work to see what is expected or to help them lay down what can be expected out of you?

I am sorry, that is a lot going on and work can be a tremendous amount of stress especially for me. I wish you peace, hope, and strength. ☮️

[swag10]

I highly recommend going back on meds under a psychiatrist's monitoring. I fully believe with the right tweaking, you can find improvement. I once tried tapering off my meds & I became extremely tired, sensitive, & sad. (I even cried when I heard a blue jay, thus recalling when I was a child)

[JaaKK]

Good morning,

I am sorry to hear how you are struggling through right now.

There is a lady that comes to my mind often when I hear about people who are struggling with depression, hurt and suffering. She is a speaker and has her own radio program called Joni and Friends, and started a program called " Wheels for the World" plus many other things that she has been involved in." She was 17 years old and dived into the water and broke her neck. She spent many and many of months in the hospital and years of therapy... She was never to be able to walk again or use any of limbs! Over time she slowly learned to change her outlook on her life. She knew that she was never again be able to do anything for herself! With the help and support of friends and family and by the grace of God, she came back to God. She started leaning on Him, praying more and more, for his direction, hope, love, peace and understanding. She went through many years of confusion and depression. Then, in God's perfect timing, God brought a young man into her life, they got married, eventually she learned how to paint with her a paintbrush in her mouth...She started learning how to become more grateful for the things that God had been providing in her life. (How many people do you know that can paint professionally with their mouth)? What a gift from God that she was given! Joni and her husband were finally able to buy a vineyard and hired caretakers to help her out throughout the day every day! Joni, started up her own radio program called "Joni and Friends". She started up another organization called "Wheels for The World". Donating wheelchairs for those who are in need.

Two points that I have for you; One Depression - Make a list of reasons what is making you depressed? Then next to the reasons, take your time and think about how you can change your attitude to a have a grateful and thankful heart? (IE: Let's say you lost your job and home life is only getting worse and everything is just becoming more negative, family and friends are not supportive, counseling is not helping... Let's take the job loss first. Yes, you lost the job, but you still have the means to get another job. You have a home to come home to... Home life; Thankfully you are not alone when it comes to family dynamics, we all have family issues. Another thing about family and friends, even though we struggle with them, we can go right there where we are before the Lord, quietly and say "LORD, help me please! I don't know what to do!" He will come to your aide! Another thing that you can do that you can be Thankful for, is to Journal your thoughts down. Counseling does not seem to be working, sometimes depression can make things worse rather than better. However, you can be thankful that you can walk! Go out and take a walk outside, get some exercise. Maybe you are too busy, but everyone has to go and get groceries. While you are at the store, be thankful for that outing to get those groceries! Maybe, you need a break at home, and all you can afford to do is go into the bathroom. Be thankful, you have that bathroom to sneak away in for a few moments and listen to some music or read a couple of paragraphs from a book, or take a few moments to pray...

Two: Being burned out; Remember there is 24 hours in one day! You should take at least one hour every day to get out and exercise. Maybe you are not able to get out for one hour every day, but you should be able to take at least four 15-minute sections of time if not more, to get outside and get some fresh air.

Plan some well needed time to take some time away or a vacation. Pray, pray, and pray... Get out and enjoy the surroundings of where you are! (The birds, the sun and moon, the wind and water, the flowers, green grass...)

Remember, "God is good!)