Overwhelmed

[Curlyyyy95]

I had a job that really messed up my mental health to the point where I had a break down and was hospitalized. I recently got fired from the job on my birthday last month and ive been job searching since. It has been impossible to find a job. People aren't even calling me back and I know my resume is good because in the past when ive interviewed they've told me. I'm stressed about how im going to pay my bills. I am also in school and have no motivation to continue. Im just very tired and feeling defeated. I am bipolar and I know im in a depressive episode because I cant stop crying. A week or two ago I was in a Manic episode and made a lot of bad decisions. I just dont know how to help myself.

[Hidden]

hey Curly

I’m also bipolar and my first symptoms especially depression happened when I was 24 years old. I’m now 67 years old so I have a lot of experience and all parts of bipolar. Depression, anxiety, manic episodes, rapid cycling, ruminations and low self-esteem to a few..

Feel free to ask me any questions you might have to help you.

very glad you came on here to this forum. You won’t find a more loving, caring and classy group.

They’ve helped me since I’ve been on here for seven months in many ways.

[Curlyyyy95 in reply to Hidden]

I guess my issue is that yes I am bipolar but all the research Ive done is on my own my psychiatrist and therapist dont explain anything. They always bring up mania or depression but I already know what that is. You brought up rapid cycling I didnt know what that is I just looked it up and I think it's so helpful. Thank you

[Hidden in reply to Curlyyyy95]

It is so funky to be in rapid cycling and it can be hard to feel and see

All da best

[blackcat64013]

Hi, Thank you for your post. I believe the States have a relatively new mental health support line number 988, just like 911 for other emergencies.

My best advice is to check in with a primary care provider:

1.for any treatment that you need and

2. to put you in touch with a local support group

Our forum members have access to their lived experiences to help you when the going gets tough.

We are online from different time zones so we are able to help within a an hour or so.

Best wishes from me in Australia 🐈‍⬛

[SteepinginSoil]

Hey Curly,

I am sorry to hear about what you are going through. I don't suffer from bipolar, but I have OCD/anxiety and I've been in that spot where work breaks me mentally and I don't want to admit it or address it until its critical. Make sure you go easy on yourself and remember that you're worthy of love and compassion. I'd definitely recommend getting established with a suitable psychiatrist who can help. I know it can be hard to integrate new people/doctors into your life, but it can really make the difference. Peace be with you!

- Matt

[Curlyyyy95]

Thank you so much for the article I'm going to read it