had a great session today

[corgi_fan817]

I am happy to report I had a great session today. It’s two in a row for me.

I started by telling my therapist I have not found a reason to live. While I made progress in therapy, I have yet to address my deepest internal struggle.

My session today focused on love. I came into the session telling my therapist I miss love in my life. I miss having something to love, being loved for who I am, and a safe harbor for my emotions. I missed having passion in my life. I talked about my low feelings of self-worth and self-esteem caused by my cardiac experience had kept me in a depressive state. We talked about this void which has left me feeling so empty inside.

I can tell you as a 55 year old man talking about love and its role in my life was not easy. I do feel vulnerable saying this but it brings a smile to my face now that I have.

I am sharing this for those who are new to this. For me, the beginning was so hard but I am now seeing the payoff. There is hope in this. Just keep going.

I still have not found the love in my life yet. I do not have a passion, i do not feel loved to the level of intimacy we all yearn for, and I do not have a safe harbor. But I now know I need to love myself for who I am, and I now know what I am looking for.

[Starrlight]

Beautiful

[corgi_fan817 in reply to Starrlight]

thank you. 😊