So I literally been paying my therapist HUGE amount of money to discover today that it’s all been going to waste. Basically my therapist doesn’t see depression or OCD as illnesses or diseases -yes she shared this great opinion today- and it just broke me.
It is much easier to think this is an illness where you have periodic episodes which the medication help in eradicating, then to think this is a normal state everyone goes through.
Me and my psychiatrist believe this is a relapse episode and we up-ed the medication dosage and are waiting for the storm to pass by
I have been seeing a therapist to learn coping mechanisms for this period of time, not knowing all the while that she believes anxiety, OCD and depression are just by products of a trauma or something.
Today we got into that argument and it just killed me when she said it never goes away you just learn to deal with it.
I was like exscuse me I had two major episodes before and had 4 years in between each episode where I felt perfectly fine and symptom free.
Then she goes on and on and says stuff like even schizophrenia isn’t an illness.
And my head starts spinning
And she goes like so what about ur life was so traumatic that you feel this way
Am like nothing!
Don’t make me believe something which isn’t true I haven’t had a serious trauma and objectively speaking aside from the ocd and depression am happy with everything in my life!
So this conversation goes on and on
She tries to convince me medication aren’t the full solution
I burst out crying
Because honestly the only thing that have me going is knowing that this is a temporary neuro-chemical imbalance that the medication will help fix and I will have my life back
With what she said am just standing there feeling more hopeless than ever
Now my question is what do you believe?
And if you believe it’s a depressive episode, how long do they typically last?