I want to feel normal again :(

[KayKay2023]

I have been dealing with so much, I don't even know where to start. In January, I accepted a position that relocated me to a different state with mor pay. During the move, I lost my cousin in a hit and run, my dad passed away, once I got settled in the new home, my job retracted my contract and made all these new provisions that I would have never considered moving for. I had a severe breakdown and I am now unable to work. I have seen therapist but i have recently been fired from my job and I feel like this is going to set me back more. I don't know where to even begin to heal anymore.

[Browny71]

I am sorry for what you are going thru. It is a lot to bear. My current depression, is really kicking my butt. I hope you find the help you need and deserve. one minute at a time sometimes is what i do.

[KayKay2023 in reply to Browny71]

Thank you.

[KayKay2023]

Thank you so much!!

[Ellamaye]

Wow that's alot to deal with. If ever you were faced with a test it seems this time in you life is it. Don't give up though many of us have hit rock bottom and then the only way to go is up x I'll pray for you and please try to look for any positives

[KayKay2023 in reply to Ellamaye]

Thank you for your kind words

[MaggieSylvie]

So sorry this happened to you; it's unfair. How are you managing to live right now? Have you gone back to where you were before?😊😊

[catsrock]

Wow, that is a lot. I'm sorry you have had so much to deal with. Keep coming here to share and so we can support you.

[KayKay2023]

I have moved back to my home state and currently living with my oldest daughter and her 3 children with my 2 younger children. It is a mess right now.

[Turnipgirl]

Recently I had a series of incidents where everything went wrong at once but thankfully I survived them and you will too!

I find the passing of time always helps.

[KayKay2023]

I appreciate all of the kind words and support. Over the weekend, I had a huge meltdown in front of all of my children and grandchildren. It was the most embarrassing moment I've had in a long time. When my anxiety started to show, I was looking for my medicine and I thought someone had hid it from me. I accused them of flushing them down the toilet, I even told them I felt like they were waiting for me to just die.... When my youngest told me what happened over the next couple of days, I was just in awwwwe. The person they were describing sounded nothing like me. I pray they don't have to witness that again. 😞

Now my youngest is scared to leave me alone in fear that I will have a meltdown and no one is around to console me. She is only 11, she should not have to take care of me. I am trying, but it is so hard to stay in tact!!!