I don't know how I am suppose to live my life when I can't seem to do anything. I feel intense dread if I need to leave the house for any reason. I have to get drugged up on ativan in order to do anything and I know that's not good. I don't know what I'm suppose to do. My family needs me and I can't even run out to the store to get something for dinner. This is awful. I was laid off from my job last November because of my mental health and it has been downhill ever since. I wish I found another job right after so maybe I wouldn't be where I am today. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if I will ever get better and be able to work again. This really sucks. ANXIETY sucks!