I am a 23 year old woman who has major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. I have been dealing with depressive since the age of 12 and anxiety my whole life. I am currently a graduate student studying general psychology. I find it ironic that I am studying the area I have the most trouble in. There is humor in that last sentence. I know I studied psychology in my undergrad to make sense of my disorders and know exactly where they came from. I still don't know. I am so depressed right now and have been the entire time I have been in school for about the last two years I don't feel I have really learned or absorbed any information. I have just gone through the motions.
This year alone I have gained over 30 pounds because I simply don't have the energy to care. Food brings me comfort and when I feel sad or anxious I eat. It is definitely not continuous but when I do eat I make poor choices. This makes me disappointed in myself because last year I lost over 30 pounds and loved the way I looked and felt. I have grown because if this would have occurred a couple years ago I would have been hysterical, but at this point I am just acknowledging I am overweight and unhealthy.
I don't usually leave the house unless its for school, grocery shopping, or to spend time with my family. I have a boyfriend who I am happy with and i am thankful for him. Except, he has no experience with mental illness and has no idea how to even deal with someone just being a little sad. Hence why I am here. I have no friends. I am not a social person because of passed experiences with friends who have turned out to be bad friends. I feel alone in my disorders. I feel like a failure. If I had any real skills I would go to school one class at a time and get a job, but I have a fear of failure and I cannot emotional keep it together to even leave my house. I need help. I just want someone to help me.
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I am new here and feeling very overwhelmed with life
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Hello I am new here. I have an Anxiety Disorder.
I’m not sure how much help i can offer but you’re not alone in your feelings. I am currently in school but i literally am having the hardest time making it through. My boyfriend just dumped me because he said he was tired of dealing with me in my depressed state and i have few friends, and the friends i do have either don’t know about my depression or don’t even check up on me. I always feel alone. My family doesn’t even acknowledge my mental health struggles. at this point, idk what to do
I think I joined this platform because i was tired of feeling alone in my feelings so it really does help when you say that. Thank you. Your now ex-boyfriend then didn't deserve you and all you have to offer if he can't help you during a difficult point in your life. I understand the school thing. I am in graduate school getting my masters in Behavioral Sciences and it requires a lot of time and devotion and to pull those two things out of myself is almost like taking life out of me. I do it, but I don't know how. What are you studying? My family goes through the same thing I do. My mother is on the same antidepressant as me and we can relate with out feelings. My father on the other hand is probably like your family. It's so frustrating to feel so much pain and just want those you love to try and help you. I know you should not give up. Have you been to therapy?
Yes, you’re definitely not alone. Thank you for your kind words. And that’s really admirable that you’re going to school for such a demanding field of study. I am an undergraduate student, but still currently undecided in my field of study. Maybe English or journalism. And yes i have been to therapy and am currently in the early stages of going consistently. i won’t give up, and you don’t give up either! you have so much going for you.
It is demanding, but I don't think it demands a lot of respect or more so people don't give it respect. It's a combination of criminology, psychology, anthropology, and sociology. People think I am in school to be therapist and yeah lol I good. No thanks. Those are both really good degrees. English would be a really good one, but journalism sounds so exciting. Do you feel the therapy is making a difference? I just had to find a new therapist because i no longer felt it was doing anything for me. You also have a lot going for you. You are putting abbey step forward to find peace and happiness.
Hello My name is David and I know exactly how you feel, I've gone through incredible hell too. Cheer up because you will definitely get out of this. It's extremely tough but youre a warrior and the storm will fade one day