Trapped

I have been fighting depression/anxiety most of my life. I'm 32 now. These past couple years have been the worst and lead me here. Almost daily I'm swallowed by anxiety and depression. It has gotten to a point that when it happens, I have a hard time finding my way out untill it decides it's finished with me. I dont know how this page is supposed to be helpful. I feel so lost and disconnected and if I wanted internet friends I would just turn to Facebook. But I'm here.

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

Sounds like you just want to be understood and supported. Well you've come to the right place. We all struggled with anxiety and depression.

You said something interesting to me. You have a hard time trying to fight your way out until anxiety is done with you. Well truth is the best way out is through anxiety. Yeah, it sucks. You probably rather walk on Legos than go through anxiety and panic. But here's the thing, you been through the storm. So that means 1. You know it passes and 2. You have survived it all.

As scary as anxiety can make you feel. It won't hurt you physically. You will be okay. Sometimes yeah, you have to ride it out. I sometimes when I'm in the thick of it, I just lie on the floor of my room and maybe clutch a pillow or my emotional support teddy 🧸. I cry but I tell myself over and over "this won't last. We've both been here before, Brain. We can do it again. We will get through this. We are okay." Then I noticed the cold sweats have stopped and the shakiness has lessen. Then I just lie in bedroom and sometimes I fall asleep. Sleep is good at resetting yourself.

But I remind myself I'm still here. It hasn't beaten me. Still standing.

Anyways welcome to the group. I hope you find your stay pleasant. Feel free to share. Because this support group is all about learning from each other. What works for us, may be it'll work for you. Ask people advice and maybe share some of your own.

Wishing you peace of mind on this bumpy ride we call anxiety ❤️🫂

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I appreciate you're time and effort replying to me. I also appreciate your jurassic park reference user name

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Welcome to the forum! I can say that I do know how you feel because I have been suffering for a while now from this dark cloud of depression and anxiety! I’m having trouble sleeping for a couple of weeks and lost my appetite and losing weight. You will get a lot of support here! Stick around! It seems like you’re never going to get through this ( me too) but Hang on because it has a grip now but it will get better! It’s 1am here where I am so I need to try to get some sleep! If you reply I will respond as soon as I get up it’s 1am. You’re going to be ok!! People care ! I care! -Shay

I’ll be back on when I get up if you want to talk I’ll be here for you to talk to!

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I appreciate you trying but this just isn't working. The layout of this platform is lazy and random. There has to be something better.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

Hi

I just responded on your other post. The site is set up as it is and that's not going to change.

This is not Facebook. The interactions are among members that suffer as you do. Anxiety and depression are the topic here. There are other sites that deal with each subject separately that you can join also.

We are here for you. This is a tough issue to battle. Are you in therapy? Is that how you got the recommendation to join?

Can you tell us a bit about what you do for your anxiety and depression? Sometimes exchanging coping skills can be helpful

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I'm not saying this needs to be like Facebook, infact there are good reasons why I don't have a Facebook. I feel like there's got to be a better way than just this little unfinished forum you just send posts into the void that people comment on and that's it. It's just lazy. There has to be something for people like us that is better developed. Made by people like us, for people like us. I cant describe it any other way.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

I don't use face book either.

This is what we have and as you read and get responses you will see and can work as a supplement for outside work.

People sharing their experiences will show you that we do know what it's like and we do care about each other

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Also, yes I'm here because of my psychiatrist knowing I want REAL engagements. I want to make REAL and MEANINGFUL connections. How do I cope with depression and anxiety? I cry my eyes out wishing the world would just stop and wishing people knew how to understand and listen. That's it

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

We do understand. I've been here a few years and I've made very meaningful connections. You will meet people to engage with it just takes some time.

I remember those days of crying and wishing people understood me. I found them here. People that have been through this know exactly what you are saying. Sadly some of friends and family will never understand how difficult this is.

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I wouldn’t leave just yet if I were you! Give this forum a chance! You will be glad you stayed! People do care on this forum! -hugs-Shay

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Oh if only there was a way to add you to a list of people I feel like understands me... this page lacks that ability... guess I'll just keep my fingers crossed that you actually will engage with me.

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I just got up! Had a very rough night! :(. Not sleeping well at all! I do care ! I’m here right now ! My family doesn’t understand me! They never did! Even though mental illness runs deep within my family! My little brother died at age 2 and my mom went away for several years! She returned home and became addicted to drugs and alcohol! She also was very abusive to me and my other 2 living brothers! My childhood was so traumatic and without my mom being around us kids were abused by babysitters etc. I always felt SO alone!!!! Then just when I thought I was going to be Ok when she came home, that’s when the Real nightmare began!!! Extreme physical mental and sexual abuse! I then became addicted at a very young age to feel normal! I’ve been struggling with alcohol relapse and it was brief but I’m trying to come back from it! I’m trying! Maybe you don’t have an addiction but depression and anxiety is very crippling!!! I have suffered so much from deep depression and awful anxiety! Just a little about me! We do care here and since there’s a common ground among us , there’s understanding and compassion here and we are here to share our stories with each other and help others who need it! Please feel free to share on here!! How are you doing right now? -Shay