Hello, this is my 1st post but I'm so glad to have found this forum as a way of reaching others who can relate to me. I have been dealing with (diagnosed) anxiety and acute depression for about 2 years now and it's a daily battle. I have found different coping methods and strategies that help me to get out of my own head at times and also started practicing setting a daily intention. These methods have helped me but I still have my moments where I struggle and beat myself up over non-important things. Today has been one of those days and I don't have many people that understand me or can relate which is why I am here. Today I've been feeling very lonely even though I'm surrounded by co-workers and have a few close friends, I'm divorced and feel like i am missing companionship. I have been on several dates since my divorce 3 years ago and have even had a few boyfriends in the time since. But I feel like i can't seem to keep a partner for very long and it really takes a toll on my self esteem. I feel like I'm desperately looking for someone to fill voids in my life and I know I should find other activities or hobbies to make myself feel whole but it never seems to work out. So every time I meet a guy, go out a few times, I want to latch onto him and have him be my partner. I know that if I liked a guy and he was dealing with anxiety/depression i would stand by his side no matter what!! I feel like i give way more then i receive and as soon as a guy behaves other then I would expect I feel rejected and as of he isn't interested in me. How do I stop my thoughts from being so negative?