Tired of living in my mind

[Dee1098]

I am exhausted. I drain the life out of everything with my anxiety. I overthink to the extreme. I am ruining the first healthy relationship I have ever been in. I am pushing him away because I don’t know how to be better. I want to be alone so bad but I’m so afraid to be alone. I don’t feel anyone deserves being in my mess. It makes me so sad that I can’t fix myself for my friends my boyfriend and my family.

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

To quote a poet Blake Auden

"This Anxiety is not free. It cost me more than I know how to give. These days it's the most expensive thing I own."

Anxiety truly can be a really tough for. Racing thoughts, making up scenarios in your head that only hurt your feelings, scared of being alone and desperately wanting to be apart of a community of friends. But feeling like you don't fit in anywhere and people's lack of understanding. You end up sticking to yourself. Sure, the outside world can't hurt you. But you do that all on your own. Because in you stay inside your head. And it's always raining.

I know that feeling all too well.

But there is a way. For some folks it's talk therapy. Finding the right kind of support group with therapy. So you can develop tools to beat back these negative thoughts of doom and gloom. Therapy can even help you have a frank discussion with your love one about your anxiety. Sometimes our loves ones mean well and they want to help they just aren't sure how to.

Trust me there is a way to beat this thing. I didn't think I would have a relationship with anyone. Now I've been in a relationship for 10yrs now and he's been my biggest cheerleader. Sure, we had our ups and downs with anxiety. One thing is that you have to learn how to be your own hero. Because sometimes you won't have people who can be there for you. Friends and your partner have work and etc. You have to calm yourself down.

Some books that helped me are DARE: The New Way to End Anxiety and Stop Panic Attacks by Barry McDonagh

Hope and Help for your Nerves End Anxiety Now by Dr. Claire Weekes

I wish you the best of luck on the bump road to healing your anxiety 🫂❤️ I know you can do this.

[Dee1098 in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

Thank you so much! I have never felt like someone got what it felt like. This perfectly summed it up. I will try every day to get better. I will work on independently being my own hero more. I owe that to myself and those I love. I will give those books a read. Thank you so much that meant a lot.

[CL3V3R-G1RL in reply to Dee1098]

I'm glad I can help. Focus on the stair not the staircase. Each little goal you meet and faced is a good thing, that shouldn't be discounted. Eventually you will start doing bigger and bolder things. Takes a little while and there will be set backs. Remember if you must fail, fail forward. We did not get some of our greatest intentions without a few setbacks. Failure doesn't have to be a bad word. Like if you planned on going for a walk around your neighborhood but got anxious and couldn't do it. Doesn't mean you are a failure. Just means you couldn't do it today. Perhaps you put too much pressure on yourself to make it perfect. Instead try again tomorrow and just say to yourself will see how it goes. No pressure. If I walk just 3houses down and back. That's a good start for me! And if you still feel good at 3 houses maybe go for 4. And see how you feel. Little things like that can be a great way to build up confidence!

Yes, do it for you! ❤️🫂

[Dee1098]

Yes, you are correct! You are very wise 🥰 I wish you all the best with your anxiety journey as well. If you ever have a super hard day feel free to let me know.

[darksun]

Ask: your version of a God to help your head! If you dont Ask you wint recieve. Hit you knees and ask